each day...

Each Day

A new year just beginning,
Each day a fresh, new start,
To fulfill your hopes
And pursue the dreams
Sustained within your heart.
Put God in charge;
He'll plant the seeds
Of affection, love and care.
Like a garden, your life will grow
With kindness flowering there.
And as you face the wonder
Of each day's mysteries,
You'll see God's hand
Unfolding, daily, possibilities!
And as each day comes to a close,
Dream a dream or two,
Then with a prayer thank dear God
For each day given to you.

Poet, Gael Phaneuf

You Are a Boxer Puppy

Energetic, playful and good with kids. You've also got a wild spirit that can't be trained or tamed.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

2nd round...

look alike celeb

http://www.myheritage.com

reply to the ppl in m chatter box...

sarah sim and oso sarah ong. my msn is sherlene__@hotmail.com, jus add me and we can catch up from there... i am in penang. will be going to KL on jan 20th so those of you so are in penang or KL then, we can meet up ya? will tell u my fon on msn...still x think it's so safe to post my fon up here.... and well. someone hacked my msn as well..dumbass...

it's good to be home.... been eating and eating.... working at my papa's ENT practise. sorta doing ENT posting at the same time. haha. got to play doctor today to a nurse, she had sneezing and itchy nose. so i did the whole history and PE.. bit slack cos i x very good with the othoscope and also the more canggih scope watever it is called. looking into ear, nose and throat. watched a buccal mucosa biopsy. silver nitrate cautery. saw NPC...quite gross.hardly study and whole day kena pimped by my papa..in other words... kena kata for being blur. but quite fun la, he emphasize a lot on patient education so i had to do the explanation to patient bout keeping environment clean, killing dustmites on linen, clean aircon...etc. din no doc's job so complicated.


jon and david, how are you guys? c mas overseas must be a lot more happening den in m sia. ecf kl having carolling gain...ecf pg, we are organizing a outreach c mas party...hehe, grow a lot since last yr...we have more families now...

dat's all for now. have to check my super many mails...cos i haven been online in a while...

God bless, guys!

"When asked if my cup is half-full or half-empty my only response is that I am thankful I have a cup."
-Sam Lefkowitz

"If a fellow isn't thankful for what he's got, he isn't likely to be thankful for what he's going to get."
-Frank A. Clark

"In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit."
-Albert Schweitzer

"Today I can complain because the weather is rainy or I can be thankful that the grass is getting watered for free."
-Unknown
"Thank God every morning when you get up that you have something to do that day, which must be done, whether you like it or not."
-James Russell Lowell

"Things could be a lot worse, the stress of the situation always could be worse, but I am alive and I have a lot to be thankful for - so I shall not waste my days with stress and frustrations - Life is too short! "
-Catherine Pulsifer

"Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it."
-William Arthur Ward

"Gratitude is riches. Complaint is poverty."
-Doris Day

"If the only prayer you said in your whole life was, 'thank you,' that would suffice."
-Meister Eckhart

"Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for."
-Epicurus

"When eating a fruit, think of the person who planted the tree."
-Vietnamese Proverb

"Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough."
-Oprah Winfrey

"God gave you a gift of 86,400 seconds today. Have you used one to say 'thank you'?"
- William Arthur Ward

Dear Lord,

I pray for Wisdom to understand my man; Love to forgive him; And Patience for his moods. Because, Lord, if I pray for Strength, I'll beat him to death.

AMEN

hehe... i found this very funny cos this is so typical of me, well... good thing i don't have that much strength anyway cos if not SOMEONE is one DEAD PIGGY. he found it funny as well. probably not so when he is blue black.... mua hahahahahaha... i m evil ain't i?

when you thought i wasn't looking....

A message every adult should read, because children are watching you and doing as you do, not as you say.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you hang my first painting on the refrigerator and I immediately wanted to paint another one. When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you feed a stray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make my favorite cake for me and I learned that the little things can be the special things in life. When you thought I wasn't looking I heard you say a prayer, and I knew there is a God I could always talk to and I learned to trust in God.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick, and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you give of your time and money to help people who had nothing and I learned that those who have something should give to those who don't.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it and I learned we have to take care of what we are given. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw how you handled your responsibilities, even when you didn't feel good and I learned that I would have to be responsible when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw tears come from your eyes and I learned that sometimes things hurt, but it's alright to cry. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw that you cared and I wanted to be everything that I could be.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I learned most of life's lessons that I need to know to be a good and productive person when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking, I looked at you and wanted to say, 'Thanks for all the things I saw when you thought I wasn't looking.' Each of us (parent, grandparent, aunt, uncle, teacher or friend) influences the life of a child. How will you touch the life of someone today?

You Are a Bright Star Soul

Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheive You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles. Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally! Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

i am really bored... not that i m not usually siok sendiri... i am... but considering i m supposed to be studying n not "cam-whoring"..learnt this word today. it sounds bad ya. i think it actually means jus doing a lot of siok sendiri photo taking dat i usually do anyway.... man, and guys please don't comment i look like i m wearing lingerie i will box your face the next time i see u... (dat's for you, fat fat!!! baka!!!) anyway, this my new dress which i have not wore out yet...cos i have no occasion to wear to and oso it's a week to exams... study la... blerrrggghhhhhh-ness....

integrity...

An old man and his dog were walking along a country road, enjoying the scenery, when it suddenly occurred to the man that he had died. He remembered dying, and realized, too, that the dog had been dead for many years. He wondered where the road would lead them, and continued onward.

After a while, they came to a high, white stone wall along one side of the road. It looked like fine marble. At the top of a long hill, it was broken by a tall, white arch that gleamed in the sunlight. When he was standing before it, he saw a magnificent gate in the arch that looked like mother of pearl, and the street that led to the gate looked like pure gold. When he was close enough, he called out, "Excuse me, but is this heaven?"

"Yes, it is, sir," the man answered. "Wow! Would you happen to have some water?" the man asked. "Of course, sir. Come right in, and I'll have some ice water brought right up." The gatekeeper gestured to his rear, and the huge gate began to open.

"I assume my friend can come in..." the man said, gesturing toward his dog. But the reply was, "I'm sorry, sir, but we don't accept pets." The man thought about it, then thanked the gatekeeper, turned back toward the road, and continued in the direction he had been going.

After another long walk, he reached the top of another long hill, and he came to a dirt road which led through a farm gate. There was no fence, and it looked as if the gate had never been closed, as grass had grown up around it. As he approached the gate, he saw a man just inside, sitting in the shade of a tree in a rickety old chair, reading a book. "Excuse me!" he called to the reader. "Do you have any water?"

"Yeah, sure, there's a pump over there," the man said, pointing to a place that couldn't be seen from outside the gate. "Come on in and make yourself at home." "How about my friend here?" the traveler gestured to the dog. "He's welcome too, and there's a bowl by the pump," he said. They walked through the gate and, sure enough, there was an old-fashioned hand pump with a dipper hanging on it and a bowl next to it on the ground. The man filled the bowl for his dog, and then took a long drink himself.

When both were satisfied, he and the dog walked back toward the man, who was sitting under the tree waiting for them, and asked, "What do you call this place?" the traveler asked. "This is heaven," was the answer.

"Well, that's confusing," the traveler said. "It certainly doesn't look like heaven, and there's another man down the road who said that place was heaven."

"Oh, you mean the place with the gold street and pearly gates?"

"Yes, it was beautiful."

"Nope. That's hell."

"Doesn't it offend you for them to use the name of heaven like that?"

"No. I can see how you might think so, but it actually saves us a lot of time. They screen out the people who are willing to leave their best friends behind."

"DO NOT
LET YOUR HEARTS BE TROUBLED. TRUST IN GOD;
TRUST ALSO IN ME." ( JOHN 14:1 ) So; TRUST IN HIM AT
ALL TIMES, O PEOPLE; POOR OUT YOUR HEARTS TO
HIM, FOR GOD IS OUR REFUGE. ( PSALM 62:8 )

NOW TO HIM WHO IS ABLE TO DO IMMEASURABLY
MORE THAN WE ASK OR IMAGINE, ACCORDING TO THE
POWER THAT IS AT WORK WITHIN US, TO HIM BE GLORY
IN THE CHURCH AND IN JESUS CHRIST THROUGHOUT ALL
GENERATIONS, FOR EVER AND EVER! AMEN.
( EPHESIANS 3:20-21 )

was gonna start blogging stg but decided i better study... so it's left at here.... for quite some time... hehe...

ARE YOU LIMITING GOD?

When God puts a dream in your heart, when He brings opportu­nities across your path, do you step out boldly in faith, expecting the best, moving forward with confidence, knowing that you are well able to do what God wants you to do? Or do you shrink back in fear, and say, “That’s too big for me. I’m not qualified. I’m not able. I could never do that.”

God wants to do a new thing in your life. But you’ve got to do your part and get outside that little box. Start thinking big!

this is what jumped outta the article i was reading from someone who sends me mails every week... i don't know who he is but he's been sending me these encouraging emails faithfully for the last year or so and i still don't know who he is. this is what i need to hear frm God, i believe. there are things in my life that i need to look beyond the physical circumstances and believe for bigger things. a bit change in mindset of my destiny in life. what God has in store for me. i know i am called by name to make a mark in my generation, i know it! yet do i know KNOW it? maybe not yet set in my heart... like jelly that requires setting. it needs to set it and harden. the believe, not the head knowledge but the heart believe. sometimes the people and the environment i am in can be daunting. it's not that it's bad. it's just that the satisfaction or the contentment with now, more or less there, it's good enough, it's OKAY... big word... man, i use it all the time. OKAY means everything from " i am not really okay but i don't wanna be not okay externally. or " i m just cruisin.. life is dandy!" and settling into average mundane life jus floating along. days, months... maybe even years... man, i need to get outta this cycle... and i do... momentarily... when i feel inspired by a sermon, by an article, by a prophecy... by an encouragement... i break through~! but somehow due to lack of perseverance or like a burnt out candle, after a couple of months... tiang tiong teong tiang... i go back to LIFE being normal... blerghhhh! that's my expression...

this is my theory... there are different seasons in life...and some seasons are fruitful, happy, inspiring, spirit-filled whereas other seasons dry, depressed, sucky things happen, life goes round and round. and as life changes we adapt and change too... sometimes for the better sometimes for the worse... and it's a lot easier to change for the worse, following natural progression of things- the theory of atrophy, if you leave things alone, they will get worse...not better... so.... in order to stop the progression of atrophy, we must actively exercise la.... do yaink!!! u want your muscles to hyperthrophy or even maintain tone, of course exercise la... ask jimmy... he's an expert in this....but exercise what? our FAITH.... and our muscles too if you don't wanna have flabby arms and non existent muscles...

as usual i will end up saying other things when i intended to blog about other stuff to begin with... i practise "circumstantiality" a lot... it's when you talk around the topic, beat around the bush for ages... it happens in psychiatric disorders. not that i have one, i've only been diagnosed with irritable bowel syndrome (IBS), only diagnosis i have pegged to my name... and i forgot... i've got chronic rhinitis too... but it hasn't been flaring up much so that's good and my bowels are not too bad besides the more then usual tummy aches that i get... colic... i talk too much so i swallow a lot of wind... that must account for it...

anyways, i think i'll stop here for now... i've got a tummy ache now and it's getting to me ( i actually thought i had acute appendicitis one night when i had this dumb pain till 3am in the morning, well i did all the neccessary physical examination and all negative, feel asleep eventually) God, help!!! i am pretty sure it's not appendicitis this time.... :P

someone said," who are these 2 dumb looking guys?" hehe... no comments cos said by a guy... one guy admitted to looking like a pig on tis pic.. another said dat d other guy had a weird looking tie... all in all, i still like this pic cos i think i look good... la la la~~~ 

my faithful ortho partner...

wei how... who had to bear with all my nonsense for the past 5 weeks... and hear me crap and whine and allowed me to poke a jelco into his hand... How blessed can i be... good partners are hard to come by... even tho one who steal m&ms from the wards... haha...

i actually looked TALL

bunny's good photo taking skills... for once i actually looked TALL... muahahahahahahaha 

u can tell by the look on my face...

DAT... they are squashing mua... 

hehe...

you guys must be wondering why we r all wearing hats or caps... it's the designated attire for the party.... hehe... :) 

angel n i~

hehe... she's wearing her red snoopy night dress n holding the handphone chain i gave her... balloons compliments from me... happy birthday dear! *hugs* 

all dressed up fr susan's 21st. wished my piggy was here to take pichwer together.... his substitue the pink version had to do... hehe... 

hindmarsh peeps...

d people i live with... in Hindmarsh International Village... 

b day girl... miss VT n i...

glad u had a great time...! whoo_hoo!!! my surprise worked... talk bout being an "expert"... 

peek-a-boo~!

who's dat spoiling my pic? "tssk tssk" to unwanted person...

raju trying to "cekik" me.... n dat's a spoon of chocolate cake i m holding.. u can see i m really into my food....  

mrs kyeong, my sweet landlady and bunny dear... at starbucks...and dat's a piece of chocolate in my hand...hee hee... 

we gotta FIGHT to TAKE ground...

was truly inspired by saturday's session at powergen camp! was so touched by the WORD and God's presence was so strong in the place... it was awesome! for those who dunno what i'm talking about, powergen is a young adult's ministry at Paradise church which i am attending... since 2 months ago the international students have spilted from powergen to form our own international student ministry in the city... sorta miss powergen meetings every wednesday... the atmosphere the people, a lot of aussies even tho i dun really no them... the whole worship band which is just awesome...

enough bout dat... sorta got deviated... this post is supposed to be bout THE session on FAITH...
pastor cameron was preaching on FAITh from this chapter in Acts.

Paul and Silas in Prison

16Once when we were going to the place of prayer, we were met by a slave girl who had a spirit by which she predicted the future. She earned a great deal of money for her owners by fortune-telling. 17This girl followed Paul and the rest of us, shouting, "These men are servants of the Most High God, who are telling you the way to be saved." 18She kept this up for many days. Finally Paul became so troubled that he turned around and said to the spirit, "In the name of Jesus Christ I command you to come out of her!" At that moment the spirit left her.

19When the owners of the slave girl realized that their hope of making money was gone, they seized Paul and Silas and dragged them into the marketplace to face the authorities. 20They brought them before the magistrates and said, "These men are Jews, and are throwing our city into an uproar 21by advocating customs unlawful for us Romans to accept or practice."

22The crowd joined in the attack against Paul and Silas, and the magistrates ordered them to be stripped and beaten. 23After they had been severely flogged, they were thrown into prison, and the jailer was commanded to guard them carefully. 24Upon receiving such orders, he put them in the inner cell and fastened their feet in the stocks.

25About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them. 26Suddenly there was such a violent earthquake that the foundations of the prison were shaken. At once all the prison doors flew open, and everybody's chains came loose. 27The jailer woke up, and when he saw the prison doors open, he drew his sword and was about to kill himself because he thought the prisoners had escaped. 28But Paul shouted, "Don't harm yourself! We are all here!"

29The jailer called for lights, rushed in and fell trembling before Paul and Silas. 30He then brought them out and asked, "Sirs, what must I do to be saved?"

31They replied, "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved—you and your household." 32Then they spoke the word of the Lord to him and to all the others in his house. 33At that hour of the night the jailer took them and washed their wounds; then immediately he and all his family were baptized. 34The jailer brought them into his house and set a meal before them; he was filled with joy because he had come to believe in God—he and his whole family.

The crowd joined in the attack against Paul and Silas - the words of the crowd put Paul and Silas in jail, the owners of the slave girl brought them before the magistrate and said a lot load of stuff that condemned these 2 might men of God to prison... in the same way, we are held bondage by the words that are spoke over our lives... "you are stupid."" you will never amount to anything." "You are just naive." "who do you think you are?" words dat hold us down, make me fear the rejection of men. of our loved ones. holding us down from living out the live that God has calledus to. Because we are afraid. chains that are like the stocks on paul and silas in prison (he put them in the inner cell and fastened their feet in the stocks). not physical chains but mental, emotional, spiritual chains that are so deeply embedded in our lives that we almost feel confortable having them around. Truly, i must admit i got so used to believing certain things about myself that will never ever change or that i could not do certain things because of what people had said in the past. or hurts that never truly heal due to the sharp words of people who don't even know how much damage they ever caused by saying random things. BREAK FREE!!!!! pasor cameron shared bout how he was so afraid of being called an idiot in the past. he was worshipping God one nite in his bedroom and God told him... "pull a stupid face." it was something he found really hard to do. because in the past he had been called an idiot for doing idiotic stuff obviously. and God said, "pull a stupid face." and in obedience he did. it was such a liberation for him to jus be as idiotic as he could be in the presence of God. to dance like a mad nut. like david who gave all to God not caring what others thought of him. He danced before his King in public... and in the same name, we need to BREAK FREE, BREAK THROUGH all the chains, walls, barriers that stop us from living up to our calling.

About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them. 26Suddenly there was such a violent earthquake that the foundations of the prison were shaken. At once all the prison doors flew open, and everybody's chains came loose. - this is what paul and silas did. they prayed and worshipped. they believed that God was gonna come through for them somehow. imagine if silas or paul said," i think we overdid it. we certainly threw the whole city into chaos and we are so dead. now they are gonna persecute us and we are gonna be here for the rest of our lives." but they did not. They were united in believing that by prayer and worship, they could BREAK THROUGH their physical circumstances. even in their pain, they were flogged, stuck in a dungeon... their fate unknown. They had FAITH. FAITH that could move mountains. FAITH that not only broke the stocks that held them and the prison door to their cell but shook the very foundations of the prison and ALL the prison doors flew opened... i must do a ji's, "WAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH".... hehe... Like paul and silas, we can BREAK THROUGH our physical circumstances... BELIEVE IT! don't be cynical with God.He is the God of impossible. how awesome it is if we prayed and worshipped till the chains of others are broken too.

BREAK THROUGH your physical circumstances!!BREAK THROUGH from your mental and emotional barriers!! LIVE OUT the calling of God on your life. HE has called you by name. He has given you dreams. And He will bring them to pass when we lay our lives before Him. CONTEND for it. pray, worship, live it out!!! if God asks you to pull a stupid face, DO IT!!! very self liberating to go nuts before Him... We gotta fight to take ground... for God, for ourselves, for our family and friends, things are not gonna happen if we sit on our butts and jus say," ya ya... i am working on it." in other words (my translation) "i am not doing anything about it. i am jus procrastinating and hoping it will work out somehow." push it to the side and move on with life... *do... yaink!*

I think it is such a freedom in shouting out loud, " THE ENEMY HAS BEEN DEFEATED!! DEATH COULDN'T HOLD YOU DOWN!! WE ARE GONNA LIFT OUR VOICE IN VICTORY! WE ARE GONNA MAKE OUR PRAISES LOUD!!" try it... feels very, very good....

sorry this is kinda cheong hay. i figured i haven't got the gift of teaching. i go around here a bit there a bit. hope you get the gist of it and what's on my heart. love u guys, have a wonderful week~!

Legally Blonde...

A lawyer and a blonde are sitting next to each other at the bar. The lawyer leans over to her and asks if she would like to play a fun game. The blonde, drunk and dozing, just wants to take a nap, so she politely declines and rolls over to the window to catch a few winks.

The lawyer persists and explains that the game is really easy and a lot of fun. He explains: "I ask you a question, and if you don't know the answer, you pay me $5, and visa-versa."

Again, she politely declines and tries to get some sleep.

The lawyer, now somewhat agitated, says, "Okay, if you don't know the answer you pay me $5, and if I don't know the answer, I will pay you $50," figuring that since she is a blonde that he will easily win the match.

This catches the blonde's attention and, figuring that there will be no end to this torment unless she plays, she agrees to the game.

The lawyer asks the first question: "What's the distance from the earth to the moon?"

The blonde doesn't say a word, reaches into her purse, pulls out a five-dollar bill and hands it to the lawyer.

Now, it's the blonde's turn. She asks the lawyer: "What goes up a hill with three legs, and comes down with four?"

The lawyer looks at her with a puzzled look.

He takes out his laptop computer and searches all his references. He taps into the digital cellphone via infra-red wireless connection to his modem port and searches the Net and the Library of Congress. Frustrated, he sends E-mail to all his co-workers, friends, clients, and suppliers that he knows. And then some. All to no avail. After over an hour, he wakes the blonde and hands her $50. The blonde politely takes the $50 and turns away to get back to sleep.

The lawyer, who is more than a little miffed, wakes the blonde and asks, "Well, so what IS the answer?"

Without a word, the blonde reaches into her purse, hands the lawyer $5, and goes back to sleep.

a random quote...

"Anatomy (n): something everyone has, but which looks better on a girl."

- Bruce Raeburn

i totally agree. it's funny that a guy admitted this... i m still gloating... la la laaaa...

kids think of the funniest things...

Proverbs From the First Grade...

A first grade teacher collected well-known proverbs. She gave each kid in the class the first half of the proverb, and asked them to fill in the rest. Here's what the kids came up with:

1. Better to be safe than... punch a 5th grader.
2. Strike while the... bug is close.
3. It's always darkest before... daylight savings time.
4. Never underestimate the power of... termites.
5. You can lead a horse to water but... how?
6. Don't bite the hand that... looks dirty.
7. No news is... impossible.
8. A miss is as good as a... Mr.
9. You can't teach an old dog... math.
10. If you lie down with dogs, you... will stink in the morning.
11. Love all, trust... me.
12. The pen is mightier than... the pigs.
13. An idle mind is... the best way to relax.
14. Where there is smoke, there's... pollution.
15. Happy is the bride who... gets all the presents.
16. A penny saved is... not much.
17. Two is company, three's... The Musketeers.
18. None are so blind as... Helen Keller.
19. Children should be seen and not... spanked or grounded.
20. If at first you don't succeed... get new batteries.
21. You get out of something what you... see pictured on the box.
22. When the blind lead the blind... get out of the way.
23. There is no fool like... Aunt Edie.
24. Laugh and the whole world laughs with you. Cry and... you have to blow your nose

so funny rite? kids are hilarious... hope this cracked you up as much as it did to me!:p

siok sendiri....

this is my poser pichwer... got tons more that i take of myself when i m bored... of cause editting it makes it even more fun... soft focus, graduated tint... add bit of shadow here and there.... n ta-da! my own self eddited pic... vain big time as my papa would say... 

alice in adelaide land...

haha... trying to play around with photo editting... it's fun! cos i don't feel like studying...alice and I in her kitchen.... at The Village (The Kampung) .... it's really called The Village... 

*huggie*

aparently this pic looks quite lesbo... o well... vanessa give good *huggies*... la la laaaaa~! 

desmond's burfday~!

any reason to eat... especially if it's a good reason. it's desmond's burfday~! that's the guy at the left end of the pic... steamboat was good....eat eat eat... fat fat d... =) 

today have been a rather emo day... have been feeling up and down past few days... more down den up cos of this blasted cold and sore i got on my lip... was being miserable about life and looking at all my shortcomings as a person... wallowing in self pity like a hippo wallowing in mud on a hot day... that's me... then, i got out of that phase... was feeling mildly better, still kinda out wif God... caused i can't justify myself being so 'watever' and don't care... and don't know what to say to God... i know i am in the wrong... sounds kinda lame right? as if i didn't know i was wrong before i behaved badly... this is a few days ago...

went to church this morning, had a very fitful sleep... felt bit off during worship but decided i shall put my heart into it, and it was a great time of worship, it really amde the diffference... i was a watering pot... and God's good timing ,worship was longer today and being in God's presence and feeling crappy bout myself, everything just broke my flood gates.... not that i really cried like until like someone died liddat, but well... i'd make quite a good watering pot... and after that i felt a lot better... life felt a lot easier to bear, it's was alrite being sick, i will get better, all my shortcomings, God is working on them... i am not perfecct but i am not a loser as well... i m determined God wants me to live a victorious life so i m not gonna behave like some loser... or as if i've already lost... letting circumstances get the better of me... I REFUSE TO BE A LOSER!!!!

prev called and asked if i wanted to go to the beach... went back, pondered a bit, everyone else at hostel not going ,should i go? decided.... why the heck not? just cause others not going...it's a bright, sunny day! there's no point cooping myself inside to grow mould.... go out there and get some sun... so put on my beach shorts... bright orange wid white flowers... red nike cap, spaghetti tank top, some sunscreen and off i went to the beach, hehe... i even got a few honks when i was standing on the roadside and one my korean hostel mates looked at me twice.... o well, maybe i siok sendiri, don't care either way... i looked good, felt good, i m going out...to the beach!!! la la la...

the beach was awesome! 28 degrees... sun up in the sky, having a picnic... eating "onde-onde''... happiness... it's very hard to find "onde-onde" in Adelaide, mind you... and Koghini's are pretty good... played football, monkey(haha... didn't become the monkey at all altho SOME ppl tried to kenakan me), galah panjang which was dem funny, cos i always kena touched... but i always touch people as well...so same same la... and the sea water was so nice, it was really cold though, too bad i didn't bring a change of clothes or i would have gone swimming.... just didn't fancy the idea of having to go back with wet undies and sand... you get the idea, the water is ice cold by the way... but in warm weather...cold water is really inviting...and it's clear....and aparently jelly-fish-less... so what else could be better? posing with priya like we are pantene girls with my hair blown by the wind.... super siok sendiri but what the heck... it was fun! eating kettle chips... lying on my back n enjoying the sun.... life was near perfect. and we had very good chocolate cake too... and i had ice cream!!! mua ha ha ha...

was happy... came back... okie, my lip hurt cos i wasn't suppose to expose it to sun... well, i was happy altho i didn't get that much of a tan... my skin just don't absorbed the sun like it used to... my face turned a bit darker but not obvious as well...

then i checked my mail box, got a very surprising email and it's something BIG...something that would require me to take a BIG step of faith... and i have yet to decide whether i am up for it... please pray for me... general idea, to make the correct decision and follow God whichever way He wants me to go...

and just now... had another watering pot session... man, this sprinkler system is just working too well... anyway, was stressed out bout certain issues with someone dear to my heart... sorta worked it out... not entirely... but trusting God will deal with it somehow...

now my throat is itchy... how wonderful...hehe, i am alrite... bacteria!!! you not gonna get me down....ggggggGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

a little bit of humour...

Tiger Woods For A Day ...

There was this preacher who was an avid golfer. Every chance he could get, he could be found on the golf course swinging away. It was an obsession. One Sunday was a picture perfect day for golfing. The sun was out, no clouds in the sky, and the temperature was just right.

The preacher was in a quandary as to what to do, and shortly, the urge to play golf overcame him. He called an assistant to tell him that he was sick and could not do church, packed the car up, and drove three hours to a golf course where no one would recognize him. Happily, he began to play the course.

An angel up above was watching the preacher and was quite perturbed. He went to God and said, "Look at the preacher. He should be punished for what he is doing."

God nodded in agreement. The preacher teed up on the first hole. He swung at the ball, and it sailed effortlessly through the air and landed right in the cup three hundred and fifty yards away. A picture perfect hole-in-one. He was amazed and excited.

The angel was a little shocked. He turned to God and said, "Begging Your pardon, but I thought you were going to punish him?"

God smiled. "Think about it -- who can he tell?"

thanks to those who called and msged and made and effort to sayang me... thanks for caring even though i probably didn't feel like talking much.... sniff sniff... i m touched you guys bothered... i was being such a gwamps... something along the lines of... everybadi hates me, i hate myself, i shall go eat worms... not tat i m really going to do dat... jus too gross.... those "ngiao ngiao-ey" creatures.... yukkiness... cockroach invasion cleared i hope... killed another 2 yesterday....

feelin a mite better... =)

p.s: my phone no credit so can't reply msg es...

someone who is feeling sick, miserable, gwampie... wallowing in self pity... feeling rather negatively bout life cause of some stupid bacteria and virus infection... :...(

tewwible me...

actually i felt like blogging bout an hour ago... but when i am finally looking at this page... i don't particularly feel like it... man, i m fickle, this is tewwible.... as usual, lack of perseverance... and the "want to blog" feeling has passed... and it will return again... esp when the net is not working... which is jus annoying...

when i was napping just now... was just thinking bout a few things... last night i had a very scary dream... i dreamt i witnessed a murder, this lady just shot her father in the back somewhere near a swimming pool and somehow it had something to do with a piece of butter and that's the evidence that she did it... so she was thinking where to hide the butter and somehow in my mind, i came up with the idea of melting it... sigh... what am i doing "helping" a murderer hide evidence and of all things a piece of butter? but the dream was quite scary...it was very real.. and i could remember details... the lady had long hair, she's quite tanned, and her father was quite fat... very actually...can see the layers of fat.... waaaaaaaa..... man, i should use my brain space more constructively...

anyways this isn't what i wanted to blog about... i was just thinking of agoraphobia... that's social phobia although the definition is way more complicated than that... and i was analyzing myself... i know i do have some of it to some extend... although i think it's pretty normal to have it now and then as long as it's not causing my life to be dysfunctional... sometimes i just really feel like "mengabaikan diri" cos i don't feel like facing the world... or more like the demands of the world on me... like smiling or talking to people when i totally don't feel like it and having to force myself cause i don't wanna be rude or mean.... this doesn't happen all the time. generally, i m quite sociable....depending on my mood... some times, i just don't feel like talking to people up to the extend, i don't feel like lugging myself up from bed at 7 am in the morning, catch bus to go hospital or see patients who don't wish to be bugged by med students anyway... and it goes in a cycle.... but lately i haven't been feeling like that at all.... hehe, and a lot of it i think has to do with the environment i am in as well...

well, call me easily influenced by circumstances... but i am enjoying my spinal rotation, it's quite slack although there's 8 clock ward rounds every morning... the docs bring us students for coffee, they are quite jolly, they tell funny jokes, one of the fellows is frm UK, he practises his glares (learnt that frm my 5th yr) on us, my 5th year is lovely... dat's an aussie term... wonderful, brilliant, wicked... really inspired by her, she's such a nice person... really... i mean she's not perfect... but she makes an effort to be helpful... to be nice to people, small lil things... more than the big things... that makes a difference... she stopped to help this old couple find the their way, they didn't even asked, she figured they looked lost and stopped and asked them... she puts up the X rays before the doc even ask her to, offers to see patients... we practised OSCE stuff together... and being with her jus inspire me to be make more of an effort, to be more helpful... somehow...

a few conclusions... it is important to place/position myself in a inspiring enviroment... people who will inspire me and help me grow... and hopefully one day i shall be an inspiring person as well... well, need to be inspired before i can go out there to inspire others...

enviromental factors can do a lot to kill off the "spirit" in me... the people, the way they behave... time, hospital, friends... can all influence me in a very bad way if i m not careful...

one person can make all the difference in the lives of people around them... i shall aspire to be an inspiring person... and a person can change the environment he/she is in but choosing to be positive and helpful....

anyways, George (that's my 5th yr...her name's actually Georgina-famous five, people?) thanks for being an inspiration... really enjoyed doing this MSA with you... you made all the difference
( it might have been totally boring otherwise)... Continue to shine brightly~! Thanks for everything...*hugs*

       Squirrels in Church!

      A small town had only three Churches in it but they all
  suffered with the same problem.  You see, all three had a
  serious problem with squirrels getting into the Church.

      Now each Church, in its own fashion, had a meeting to
  deal with the problem.

      The first Church congregation decided that it was
  predestined that the squirrels be in the Church, and that
  they would just have to live with them.

      The Second Church decided they should deal with the
  squirrels lovingly . So they humanely trapped them and
  released them in a park at the edge of town.  However within
  3 days, they had all returned and were all back in the church.

      The Third Church came up with the best solution. They
  voted the squirrels in as members.  Now they only see them
  at Christmas and Easter.

      The moral of the story is: Don't be a squirrel, attend your
  Church regularly! 
  

why i am so blessed...

  "ALL OF THE DAYS OF THE AFFLICTED ARE EVIL, BUT HE
WHO IS OF A MERRY HEART HAS A CONTINUAL FEAST."
                ( PROVERBS 15:15 *NKJV )

       We are all Architects of our own future!  The thoughts we
 have today dictate what our future holds for us tomorrow.
 Therefore a person who has positive thoughts shall have positive
 results, just as a person who has negative thoughts shall attract
 negative results in their life.

     Therefore if we start our day by counting all of our blessings,
 and then try to have positive thoughts all day, our hearts will be
 indeed merry!  And as it is written, "A MERRY HEART MAKES
 A CHEERFUL COUNTENANCE, BUT BY SORROW OF THE
 HEART THE SPIRIT IS BROKEN."    ( PROVERBS 15:13 )

     Therefore be thankful for all that you have, for "HAPPY ARE
 THE PEOPLE WHO ARE IN SUCH A STATE; HAPPY ARE
 THE PEOPLE WHOSE GOD IS THE LORD!"
 ( PSALM 144:15 )  After all it is then that you will have a
 continual feast!  So enjoy your meal, and by the way, the
 special today is a double helping of God's Love!

     Now may "THE GRACE OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST,
 AND THE LOVE OF GOD, AND THE COMMUNION OF THE
 HOLY SPIRIT BE WITH YOU ALL."  AMEN.
 ( 2 CORINTHIANS 13:14 )

my devotion for the day... and i realised i find it hard to count my blessings or to think about the many blessings i
have in my life... it shouldn't be that hard...but everytime i do, i sorta get stuck at less than 10... am i just not happy
about the things i have or have i taken so many things for granted that they don't seem to make me anything much?
well... i am making myself... list down the reasons why i am a blessed person....

here goes...

1. I am a child of God and He loves me very very much. That's my top reason to be happy bout life!

2. I have parents who love me and every member of my family is still alive ( well, it's still one big imperfect family but
  everyone's there)... at least my core family. i can't imagine them not being around... you get what i mean although
  they are thousands of miles away.

3. I have supportive loved ones although some of them are so far away.... mua sayang, darlin, yen, yin, michael dog,
  chris, bunny... who sayang me a lot lot lot lot lot. there are others also and if you don't happened to be named, i
  know you guys care and sayang me lots... thanks loads! *hugs*

4. I don't have to worry bout the essentials of life. well, food, shelter and clothes... okie, sometimes i get very 'fan' bout
   cooking cause i am such a lazy person, so just drink powdered soup...but at least there is such a thing as powdered
   soup to fall back on... easier than maggi mee... shelter, I don't have to sleep under bridges in the cold... i've got a
   super comfy bed, that explains my prolonged absences from the world... I AM SLEEPING.... haha... and a
   wonderful bolster to hug which has a blue chicken little bolster cover... so cute! thanks, sayang! and pink piggy to
   keep me company so i won't be lonely...clothes... i admit are getting a little tight... but o well, i have been shopping
   for the past few weeks... i've got new stuff! wheeee! ( this is quite a lot here... i get quite happy thinking bout these....haha)

5. I am not sick... surprisingly healthy here...with minor bouts of flu....so far, i can run, i can walk, i can jump and shout
  and scream! i am happy i am walking around the wards seeing patients and not lying on the bed being seen by a
  doctor. if i can scold people and wack people, i am very much ALIVE and WELL... that includes bullying people
  who always bully me...

6. Today's a sunny day! hehe... although i didn't go anywhere much except to walk to the grocery shop to buy my
   chicken... the crazy bird didn't peck me... thank God (there's this crazy bird who pecks people when they walk
   around my area...well, i sorta decided i shan't be scared of a crazy bird and i shall punch it or wack it next time it
   tries to bully me... ) i did my laundry... very hardworking of me on a week day... awesome weather to dry my
  clothes... threw rubbish... boiled myself chicken soup... the chinese version... i feel quite accomplished...

7. I got 2 days off from hospital! how wonderful can life be... the consultant gave me 2 days off cause he was going
   for some conference. haven't got any day off for the past 3 weeks... wonderful!

8. I've got a great 5th year in my rotation and she's gonna go through osce stuff with me... how nice! hehe... and
  she's quite keng too...inspired by her... have to learn... to crap it till you make it... and also to have some facts
  and sound smart when presenting to the consultant...

9. Actually the more i type and think bout my blessings, the happier i am getting... life seems to be going pretty
  well... well, it did seem a lot more mundane before i started typing this list... now i feel... quite happy actually... =)

10. It's warm enough to wear shorts today!!! that's stg to be happy about... i haven't wore shorts for the past 2 -3 mths?
    didn't want to freeze my poor butt... hehe... it's back to tracks tonight...well, it's gonna be spring soon!

11. I saw the prettiest purple flowers when i was walking to rainbow halal today... they were alwyas there but today
    i had time to actually 'menghayati' them... a bit itchy fingers wanna pluck...but i didn't of course.... no good in
    killing poor flowers just cause they looked pretty...

12. Hehe... i actually planned to cook tonight... usually i am just too lazy, tired, can't be bothered... one tip for those
    who are bored ,look up recipes online.. can come up with 5-20 minutes recipes which are pretty easy to make,
    healthy and taste good as well! so tonight, i am trying out curry chicken with lebanese bread... fry the chicken
    with chopped onions and a bit of garlic in oil/butter, and then put curry powder... add a bit of water/milk/santan...
    cook till chicken is fully 'masak',,, chop cucumber or line d lebanese/pita bread with lettuce... stuff the bread with
    the chicken... and you are set!!!

okie... time to cook now... i am feeling pretty blessed.... all up for studying... another blessing... i didn't study at all
whole day...should be feeling pretty guilty, but since i didn't i might as well said i enjoyed my day... WITHOUT studying....
la la la!!

p.s: i made it to 12 this time.... =P

how do we reach the hurting?

something i have been thinking bout for some time... because all around people are hurting and the thing is... they might wanna hurt alone... or to be left alone so they can think about things... they might not want me to interfere or know that they are even hurting... and somehow that makes me hesitant to reach out and comfort those who i see hurting around me... or i tentatively reach out and the moment they seem uncomfortable, i totally withdraw and not try again...because i feel, i better not make situation worse and i may not be the best person to do this at all...

how hard can this be? it is... cause i do have a heart to comfort them, to console them... to jus walk with them tru this phase of their lives, and finding myself unable or stuck in some dilemma whether i should or not... is quite disturbing...

and throughout the women's conference on friday and saturday, i felt God breaking my heart.. .again and again... you know sorta like a walnut... i needed breaking... walnut is actually quite a tough nut to crack, you could break your teeth on them, proud to announce my teeth survived the ordeal though... but that's all besides the point...basically people get a nut cracker when they wanna crack walnuts... and in me, there's this toughness that's like a walnut shell... not that i am not tenderhearted about certain things, i do become a watering pot quite often... when pastor jane was talking bout this little girl who has some rare cancer and had lost her eye and needed treatment in Canada to save her other eye and to pray for her... it totally broke my heart, she was less than 10 years old and she had to go through so much already and her father died just before she was diagnosed with this cancer and her mother was at the conference... such a brave woman... do pray for her... although i can't even remember her name...

darlene zschech spoke (that's the hillsongs lady from sdyney... she's awesome, so funny and such joy~!) about standing when all hell breaks loose... and shared parts of her life when things were tough.... the choice to stand.... when you know your mission, your purpose.... and the way she illustrated it... as if the moment you got out of bed and your feet touches the floor. the whole of hell would exclaimed ," OH NO! SHE'S AWAKE". actually that would be so awesome... to freak out all the powers of hell. she's really such a woman fo God. wake up and know why you are here on earth for... to know your mission. another point is to count the cost now. how much we have to give to complete this mission, and to expect trouble... it's not as if the devil is sleeping everyday so to expect persecution when you are living a godly life. Look at what is in your hands... what has God given you.... Joyce Meyers ( i hope i spelt that correctly) said... i am part of the body of Christ and i found i was the mouth!! (slightly paraphrase) because she felt that was what she do...talk!! and darlene shared... she was singing since she was a littl girl and she turn professional in her teens( i think so) but when she met Jesus, she stopped singing because she thought that giving her life to Jesus meant doing something that was hard. singing was too easy for her and she enjoyed it too much. that is so not true. and today she's the princess of praise. she has touched the life of millions through her song... shout to the Lord... to look at what is in your hands, whatever your gift may be.... and use it for God's glory.

super deviated from what i was originally gonna write about... the conference stuff was supposed to be in another post, but as you can see, i am quite distractible... i think i got the main stuff down anyways.... and before i go off to do some serious stusying and research...

there's something i can do for the hurting... i can pray.... if nothing else...

Dear Father,
You know those who needs this prayer right now and You are listening... You see deep in the hearts of those who are crying out to You. And in the midst of their darkness and sorrow, You are doing a good work in their lives... You are changing them for the better. Father, come and comfort them, hold them in Your loving arms until all the tears have dried. grant them strength to hope, to walk through this valley of the shadow of death... for Thy rod and Thy staff will comfort them... like a Good Shepherd bringing His sheep to still waters and green pastures... May they find rest and comfort in You. Love You, Father, in Jesus name. Amen.

church gossip

Subject: Church Gossip

Sarah, the Church gossip and self-appointed arbiter of the
Church's morals, kept sticking her nose into other people's
business. Now several members were unappreciative of her
activities, but feared her enough to maintain their silence.

She made a mistake, however, when she accused George,
a new member of being an alcoholic, after she saw his pickup
parked in front of the town's only bar one afternoon.

She commented to George and others that everyone seeing
it there would know what he was doing. However, George, a
man of few words, stared at her for a moment and just walked
away. He didn't explain, defend or deny--he said nothing.
However, how fitting it was that later that evening, George
quietly parked his pickup in front of Sarah's house and left it
there all night.......

mua hahahahahahahahaha... a bit bad of me but i think quite padan muka...
dem funny... better don't gossip about other people so much... might have
unforseen consequences...

have a wonderful sunday~! =)

sun, sun....SUn!!!

all of us happily sunning in glenelg... thanusha in hot red, raynu with her *big smiles*, sharon looking bit blur blur and i kena sunned to the max... not yet terbakar yet... hehe... 

the sky looks so blue...

that's a pile of dead seaweed we are standing on by the way... at the beach... don't we look happy and carefree? life seems lots better at the beach somehow... with ice creams and the many cute doggies... and great friends to hang out with.... 

Heaven's Entrance Exam

                             HEAVEN'S ENTRANCE EXAM

               A man dies and goes to Heaven. Saint Peter
               meets him at the Pearly Gates and says, "Ok,
               here's how it works. You need 100 points to
               make it into Heaven. You tell me all the good
               things you've done, and I'll award you a certain
               number of points for each item, depending on
               how good it was. When you reach 100 points,
               you get in."

               "Okay," the man says...."I was married to the
               same woman for 50 years and never once
               cheated on her, even in my heart."

               "That's wonderful," says Saint Peter, "That's
               worth three points!"  "Three points?" he asks.

               "Well, I attended church all my life and
               supported its ministry with my tithes and
               service."

               "Terrific!" says Saint Peter, "That's certainly
               worth a point."  "One point?!!  

               Hey, I started a soup kitchen in my city and
               worked in a shelter for homeless veterans!"

               "Fantastic, that's good for two more points, "
               Saint Peter says.  "Two points?!!" the man
               cries.

               "At this rate, the only way I'm going to get
               into Heaven is by the Grace of God!"

               "Bingo, 100 points!  Come on in!"


that's so true... i was screwing my brains thinking of answers as well, sorta thinking... if i got that question when i am
at heaven's entrance what would i reply? well, at least for the parts of my good works... and realised, it's not that much
or at least not enough to warrant an entry into heaven.... only by God's grace and His sacrifice at Calvary may i enter..
... yay!!! thank You, God for being such a good God... or else nobody will enter heaven... and everyone will be stuck
doing exam outside and failing...  by the grace of God... we passed!!!

Numbers 20

Water From the Rock

1 In the first month the whole Israelite community arrived at the Desert of Zin, and they stayed at Kadesh. There Miriam died and was buried.

2 Now there was no water for the community, and the people gathered in opposition to Moses and Aaron. 3 They quarreled with Moses and said, "If only we had died when our brothers fell dead before the LORD! 4 Why did you bring the LORD's community into this desert, that we and our livestock should die here? 5 Why did you bring us up out of Egypt to this terrible place? It has no grain or figs, grapevines or pomegranates. And there is no water to drink!"

6 Moses and Aaron went from the assembly to the entrance to the Tent of Meeting and fell facedown, and the glory of the LORD appeared to them. 7 The LORD said to Moses, 8 "Take the staff, and you and your brother Aaron gather the assembly together. Speak to that rock before their eyes and it will pour out its water. You will bring water out of the rock for the community so they and their livestock can drink."

9 So Moses took the staff from the LORD's presence, just as he commanded him. 10 He and Aaron gathered the assembly together in front of the rock and Moses said to them, "Listen, you rebels, must we bring you water out of this rock?" 11 Then Moses raised his arm and struck the rock twice with his staff. Water gushed out, and the community and their livestock drank.

12 But the LORD said to Moses and Aaron, "Because you did not trust in me enough to honor me as holy in the sight of the Israelites, you will not bring this community into the land I give them."

13 These were the waters of Meribah, ^[a] where the Israelites quarreled with the LORD and where he showed himself holy among them.

I have been a Christian for nearly 5 years and when talking to someone dear today, i realised this... I didn't know this was the reason why Moses and the Israelites didn't make it into the promised land. I've always assumed that it was because they were disobedient and that they complained too much in the desert, and made God angry...but i didn't realised it was because Moses decided to strike the rock instead of speaking to it... was it that? it was something more... it was disobedience and dishonouring Him... in the sight of all His people... Moses disobeyed and dishonoured the King of kings... and that bore severe consequences... the judgement of God....

this is certainly a revelation to me... besides the reason why the Israelites were wandering in the desert for 40 years, but also the severity of the judgement of God....

yet another book in the bible came up in my mind....

16Who were they who heard and rebelled? Were they not all those Moses led out of Egypt? 17And with whom was he angry for forty years? Was it not with those who sinned, whose bodies fell in the desert? 18And to whom did God swear that they would never enter his rest if not to those who disobeyed^[c]? 19So we see that they were not able to enter, because of their unbelief.
Hebrews 3:16-19

Hebrews 4

A Sabbath-Rest for the People of God

1Therefore, since the promise of entering his rest still stands, let us be careful that none of you be found to have fallen short of it. 2For we also have had the gospel preached to us, just as they did; but the message they heard was of no value to them, because those who heard did not combine it with faith.^[a] 3Now we who have believed enter that rest, just as God has said,
"So I declared on oath in my anger,
'They shall never enter my rest.' "^[b] And yet his work has been finished since the creation of the world. 4For somewhere he has spoken about the seventh day in these words: "And on the seventh day God rested from all his work."^[c] 5And again in the passage above he says, "They shall never enter my rest."

6It still remains that some will enter that rest, and those who formerly had the gospel preached to them did not go in, because of their disobedience. 7Therefore God again set a certain day, calling it Today, when a long time later he spoke through David, as was said before:
"Today, if you hear his voice,
do not harden your hearts."^[d] 8For if Joshua had given them rest, God would not have spoken later about another day. 9There remains, then, a Sabbath-rest for the people of God; 10for anyone who enters God's rest also rests from his own work, just as God did from his. 11Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will fall by following their example of disobedience.

12For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. 13Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.

Jesus the Great High Priest

14Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens,^[e] Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. 16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

( bold words were what struck me most in those passages)

Today, as I was praying... it was different from usual... I started praying for people I usually didn't pray for, not unless they asked or I knew they needed prayer... I just did... and I prayed for things that I didn't know about, somehow just believing that God knew what they needed and I just have to pray... even without knowing what actually I was supposed to pray for...

and amazingly... God came through... and I am encouraged... even when I didn't know, He knew what they needed.... I prayed God would speak to someone dear to my heart... and comfort and help him through a difficult time.... and that somehow he would remember God's word even as he is going through a bad time...

and He did... answer my prayer...

Thank You, Lord.... and I learnt something more....

'Ye of little faith' me has just received a boost from Him.... I BELIEVE...

for those who are having finals... I am praying for you... God is awesome!!!

p.s: the above passages and the below stuff may seem unrelated. They actually are...bit of a fragmented post... =)

my 1st football match...

it was awesome~!!! watched north korea vs china women's football at the stadium opposite my hostel for free... hehe, 2nd half of 2nd matches are usually free and it's the semifinals, real life is so much fun, there were laods of china supporters and naturally figuring that since i was chinese, i'd rather support china den korea any day.... kay my chian hostel mate even bought a drum and a drum stick just for the occasion, talked bout being 'semangated', sorta of caught on the football fever from vanessa, thought it was a real pest for the past week, since there were matches the whole of last week and also some this week, super noisy, head pounding music blaring and announcements every few minutes... i was at my wits end trying to nap in the afternoons... was sorta getting used to the noise some where in the background of my dreams... good news is... finals are this usnday and it will all be over... and i hope china wins!!!! it's china vs australia so you can just imagine the amount of people that's gonna turn up... it's gonna be so exciting, even my korean landlady watched the past few korean matches....

quite an eventful match.... 3 china players got injured... and man they all had the same reaction, think some muscle cramp and had to be brought off the field by a strectcher, one of them kept on going back on the field and cramping up for like 3 times before she gave up and ended up on a stretcher...one conclusion i made.... the chinese are superbe' headers man.... they can really head the ball, and the only goal they scored was a header, a kick from the side and header into the goal, just beautifoool.... none of the korean players got injured though and they weren't playing particularly rough.... both teams were more or less on par but the china supporter, they were great.... made so much noise, had drums, china flags, painted their faces.... adn they really cheered for their team!!! korea fans were sorta silent..... anyways was happily cheering and clapping for the chinese, vanessa and i were like..... YAY!!!!! when they finally goaled...

that's not the entire highlight of the game.... was already 45 mins and the game was still gonig on... bout 5 or 10 add minutes due to the frequent change of players and injuries wat not... and suddenly outta no where.... korean scored.... and there was a huge uproar... korean fouled!!! think they pushed over the goalie or something like that... so they got a yellow card... what a relief, if not there would be additional time.... *pengsan* the more i watched, the more i stresssed....

anyways, the game sorta ended 2 minutes after korea's goal, and china won!!!! wheeee!!! the korean goalie suddenly pushed the referee and wanted to beat her up, the security guards came running and the korean players chased after her.... the camera men were videoing the whole thing ,bet it would be on news tomorrow, and the china fans started throwing plastic bottles at the korean players... my 1st mob experience as well....

i am looking forward to finals this sunday.... gonna be one exciting match... i hope.... china rocks!!!

hindmarsh bakers~

vanessa and her carrot cake, me n my chocolate muffins and ivy and her pineapple cake... i cheated, used ready made cake mix, not so keng... ivy did hers from scratch though... haha, not that it made a huge difference, my choc muffins were all sapu bersih during the IMU seniors juniors steamboat.... eat eat eat... :)

a tip for those who are interested in baking:
how to tell if your cake is done?
poke a knife/fork into the cake(somewhere is the middle) and if it comes out clean, it's done, if it's got sticky stuff on it den it needs more baking... learnt this from Petra the house mother... 

fat fat's farewell...

that's the guy in green in front that looks bit like sinchan... just kidding although he likes watching sinchan (yuks...sinchan is a hamsap lo) and the rest of church peeps sending him off at the adelaide airport...

all the best fat fat!! don't be nottie in japan.... hahahaha... *pak tor with kawaii girl under sakura trees?* 

bywe bywe fat fat....

 

arrrgggghHHHHH!!! i wanna go home and zzz... jus can't believe stupid interview technique tute got postponed form 1-3pm to 3-5pm... after making all of us wait till2pm and not turning up... suckiness..... geram...and slweepie... bad combi...gwampiness...

i want my beauty zzz.... well, i shudn't be so gwampy, i m gonna watch super man tonight... altho the prospect of sitting for 2 hr interview technique in my state of sleepiness is still very gloomy... man, i am going back to zzz straight after i go back from the movie man... woke up at 12 stg, 4 stg amd 6 stg this morning.... and 4 am the morning before too... maybe i m depressed... one of the neurovegetative features of depression is early morning awakening... haha, doubt so since i don't have the rest of the features... loss of appetite( fat chance!), weight loss( i wish...),loss of memory (maybe la) etc. i m so slweepie... i wanna kao kao chu.... i m gonna kill someone soon if i don't my beauty slweep.... jus kidding... i'm not the killer sort even though i have plenty of violent tendencies... i wished i had walked faster just now so i would have gone home before i knew it was gonna be postponed... i m jus a lazy piggy...

zzzz....oinkie oinks.... zzz.... wished i was happily in my bed now hugging my cute pink piggy....

after a long time of not writing anything much

was jus reading tru blogs...dat's wtas i do when i m bored, sorta catching up on wat's happening in my friends' lives and oso some strangers blogs who are qutie interestign... and realising i haven been blogging in ages, i have actually wanted to but somehow thing alwasy come up and net being stuck a good deal of the time, excuses...since i had hols for the past 3 weeks and i x post a single written blog except photos adn articles i gto... i miss blogging, somehow i jus don't get round doing it... i m a lazy bum, self professed glutton(ken will be so happy i finally admit to this) and lazy bum bum... i've been pigging out the whole hols, actually mostly in melbourne sincei figured i'm no a holiday, i migth as well x stinge on food and food there is so good too... compared to adelaide altho it's not that food in adelaide sucks, i jus x eat out dat much since it's expensive to do so regularly...

was reading one of my friend's blog and could identify with wat he was going through and what he was struggling with... altho mus tsay we are in very different places and in differen situations... must say d similarities in reaction was quite like... hey, i m going tru dat too... jus dat i x mention it to anyone... so only God n i knows... and it does have a lot to do with surrendering to Him... going through a phase, like i need time off from God, or feel like ignoring Him and watever He's saying...cos one, i don't wanna change or at this stage i m unwilling to... two, i jus x feel like dealing with myself at this moment or x feel ready to face issues bout myself dat i know if i deal with them face on, i will be forced to do stg bout it...so ignorance is bliss or stupidity... threeit's not as if i x read God's Word, i do... feel i m jus willfully being disobedient... cos i m sick of being good? not dat i was a great saint to begin with... but i generally choose to do the right stuff... i still do... most of the time make d appropriate choices in life and react correctly... maybe i m going through some phase in life when i jus feel like letting myself run amok, if u get wat i mean... but sorta half restraining myself... but x half as much as i usually do, cos most of us would have a 'sane' side and an 'insane' side... letting my 'insane' side emerged... bad bad idea...

i m not going kerayzee as far as i know... maybe i have lack of insight...hehe... doing psychiatry now, quite interesting. talked to some patients... some really seemed perfectly normal... they look norma, they behave relatively normally but can say the most bizzarre things.. the patient i clerked this afternoon said he saw a fire ball shooting across the road when he was driving 2 yrs ago... tot it was quite funny but of cos i x luff...

dat's all fer now... will cont next time... malas to type d....