feels like ages since i last actually wrote stg.... not because didn't wanna write but everytime i wanted to, d net would somehow be jammed or stg and it x load d page for creating a new post, which is quite annyoing so i jus end up posting up pictures since that only requires picasa n it usually works...

life's been okie.... but okie can mean a lot of things... moderately good, mildly stressful, boring, bit annoying... all categorized under okie... things that x seem big enuff to whine about... altho sometimes i do whine n lament n complain....bout everything... jus to let out some steam.... cos i learnt small things accumulate to become big things n in the end, jus explodes....n whining does help get d small things outta d way, sorta after whining, feels lots better n accumulative effect is much less....

tues to friday was influencers conference for my church, paradise community church if you guys r blur, it was great, altho mus say i was really konked everyday, cos had to rush here n there.... ushering....always thought ushering was a easy job or at least my past experiences were relatively easy.....but with a 3000 over people crowd and sudden hundreds flooding into the balcony, trying to find seats for everyone without making anyone ki siao.... quite a big task, man.... one daughter started crying cause her mom was making a fuss over the seating, i felt so bad.... and there was an old guy who refuse to get into his place n sat on the stairs... not to mention people who just somehow or other get mad or impatient when they can't find a seat tat he last minute and act as if the ushers owe it to them to find them a seat....stress ness.... all in all...an eye opening experience and oso a kaki patah ing one... wore heels, d pointy shoes with little heels and standing like 2/3 of the night in those.... no fun... really admire those women who walk roud in their stillettos.... my poor feet has been tortured by my vanity... well, wearing a skirt without heels when i m 155cm.... quite disastrous.... good thing the ozzies aren't as tall as i tot they would be...

trying out some colours.... tot it might be more interesting den jus the plain old black font... i really got to study, my super procrastinating self is jus too lazy to move... lack of motivation.... after a tiring week....all i want to do is to relax n take a break... jus chill... jus not to anything much... as my friend said.... saturday is "meeting with himself" and want it to be "meeting with su ling" not be bothered by life's problems, issues that need to be dealt with....jus meeting n reflecting n giving myself a break... d only problem with me...if i dun do stg, i will find stg to do...i cant not do anything.... even sleeping is doing stg.... fidget a lot.... jus gotta do stg.... in d end, i x feel relaxed, i x feel rested.... i did ntg much, did stg...but felt like i achieved nothing.... crapologinesss....new word.... good thing is it's supposed to be a break anyway so it's okie if i x achieve anything, bad thing.... aiks, where did my break go to? *pengsan*

God grant me strength to walk on each day... help me that i may not go astray...give me my daily bread and help me to not be sesat and blur.... grant me the wisdom so i have better time mangaement. i am severely in need of that... God, help!! it's Your time after all.... You have put eternity in my heart.... but i still have to be good steward of the time You bless me with here. *stoning...slweepie* You said...not by might, not by strength but by the Spirit of God... i just gotta trust You it's gonna work out...somehow... thank you Lord. In Jesus name.amen.

influencers rock~!!

n this picture really "syiok sendiri"... haha... 

influencers' ushers....

don't we look smart in black? balcony ushering team... 

sid from mauritius....

sid is from mauritius, he likes to tick me off and annoy me... i *piak!* him dem hard...anyway, he's an easygoing jolly fello... n erm...got enuff "insulation" for his pain receptors... 

vanessa....

haha....d person i so love to bully n bug...haha, cos u r jus so buggable....esp bout p n c.... hee hee... 3 yrs.... ki siao... *muahahahahaha* 

alvin n 3 chicks...

look at d smug face....haha.... 

legs up'~!

we sure do look happy don't we? wheeee!!! 

bbq corn!!!

we were trying to chop corn in the kitchen..half way decided to use it as deco in our photo shot...in d end the guys had to do it....corn was too hard... =) 

manja bag...

this is my manja bag...she's really jolly, man, she's d inspiring sort... even more hyper than i am... we do get along very well... haha... as long as u x steal my piggy.... love u lots... *hughug*  

Isaiah 53

Isaiah 53

1 Who has believed our message
and to whom has the arm of the LORD been revealed?

2 He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.

3 He was despised and rejected by men,
a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.
Like one from whom men hide their faces
he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

4 Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows,
yet we considered him stricken by God,
smitten by him, and afflicted.

5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.

6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to his own way;
and the LORD has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.

7 He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before her shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.

8 By oppression ^[a] and judgment he was taken away.
And who can speak of his descendants?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was stricken. ^[b]

9 He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
nor was any deceit in his mouth.

10 Yet it was the LORD's will to crush him and cause him to suffer,
and though the LORD makes ^[c] his life a guilt offering,
he will see his offspring and prolong his days,
and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand.

11 After the suffering of his soul,
he will see the light of life ^[d] and be satisfied ^[e] ;
by his knowledge ^[f] my righteous servant will justify many,
and he will bear their iniquities.

12 Therefore I will give him a portion among the great, ^[g]
and he will divide the spoils with the strong, ^[h]
because he poured out his life unto death,
and was numbered with the transgressors.
For he bore the sin of many,
and made intercession for the transgressors.

This morning while I was waiting for my friend Ernestine to fetch to me to church, thought I would just turn to my bible and read a few verses. Didn’t even pray, just flipped open casually, no particular page....and the 1^st page I flipped to ended on Isaiah53. and I felt God speaking to me, the message of Easter... today’s Good Friday for those of you who don’t celebrate Easter...this passage isn’t something new, yet I saw afresh what He gave for me.... especially verse 3-5

3 He was despised and rejected by men,
a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.
Like one from whom men hide their faces
he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

4 Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows,
yet we considered him stricken by God,
smitten by him, and afflicted.

5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.

He went through all for me...and I haven’t even given it much thought...not for some time...truthfully, this week preceding to today...most of thoughts on Easter has been centered on chocolate eggs, holidays...and a much needed break. Worn out by medical posting. And haven’t spent much time on reflecting on His sacrifice for me...superficial and shallow thoughts. and it struck me sometime yesterday...Easter has nothing to do with chocolate bunnies, holidays...it’s everything to do with Jesus... totally off perception...*teeeeetttttt!!!* switch mode....

And in church today...no guesses for which chapter was preached...Isaiah 53....ta da!!! God, I knew u had a reason for me to read that chapter. It wasn’t just a coincidence my hands flipped to that chapter. Half way at the back of my mind, I was imagining His angels hinting, “yea...there there....stop there hands... okie, open now...aha!! smart, you got the correct page...whew! job done...” I m being nonsensical, it was nothing like that. Was just a casual flip and no voices heard from heaven. And yet God spoke. I believe God do speak through the mundane things of life. No fireworks, no miraculous prophesies.... yet He can touch my heart....with just a message from my friend, the beauty of His creation, babies, flowers.... all so perfectly made...

Father, I thank You for speaking to me. Although sometimes I seem to be half listening only...and perhaps even ignoring You, Father I pray You who began a good work in me will complete it till the day of Christ Jesus. Blessed father, thank You for this day 2000 years ago that You gave Your Son, Jesus for me and for the world. Even when we were yet sinners, You loved us. For whatever reasons I cannot fathom, I know I experienced Your love and that You’ll never let me go. Help me never let You go too... I love You, Father. In Jesus name. Amen.

*can just imagine myself clambering into God’s lap...God is big and I’m a small lil girl... and just “manja-ing” with my Father. And He’ll take me into His arms and keep me safe and warm.* what a wonderful thought!

i m such a lazy piggie...

partially true and partially untrue... time seems to pass really fast these few days... i didn't feel like i achieved much but i'm not very sure wat i did with all d time... jus changed to medical home unit... it's x dat busy... but somehow all the time dunno go where...aiks! and i come back finding myself too tired or lazy to study...jus wanna sleep or curled up cos it's so cold n hibernate...yups, dat's d word... jus curled up into a small lil ball n oink oink... not bother bout d tons of stuff i am supposed to study and the 30 pts i m supposed to keep a diary on....

went to watch ice age 2 today...it's so funny, i like the wooly mammoths...they are so funny, n the ridiculously stupid sloth... and the squirrel chasing after the acorn... my sorta show....funny, crazy, cute....mixture of a tale of friednship, love n courage... with a lot of nutty and totally hilarious scenes...

the weather here has been really crazy lately...so cold, rain a bit den stop... lame sorta rain here...sorta like a heavy drizzle den it stops after 15 mins or so...but the winds very ganas... thank God for my nice comfy water proof jacket...pity it's fat fat....looked like i'm going camping wid it in my backpack...

listening to Bukan Untukku by Rio Febrian...he's indonesian...man, he is good... my indon hostel mate's cousin... changed song d... shows how long it takes to write a post... now listeing to I Believe (My Sassy Girl theme song) by shin seung hoon... ya, i m into sappy, romantic songs... well... a total romantic at heart....

it's 12.27am d... i should zzz i know.... still got tis bad habit of sleeping late when i have to get up at 7.00am... n end up zombified during the day... started on low dose coffee.... can u believe they have cafein tablets for sale at the cafeteria? goodness.... a 1st for me....

okie....dreamland.... here i come? oinkie oinks... *snores...*