Friday, June 30, 2006

after a long time of not writing anything much

was jus reading tru blogs...dat's wtas i do when i m bored, sorta catching up on wat's happening in my friends' lives and oso some strangers blogs who are qutie interestign... and realising i haven been blogging in ages, i have actually wanted to but somehow thing alwasy come up and net being stuck a good deal of the time, excuses...since i had hols for the past 3 weeks and i x post a single written blog except photos adn articles i gto... i miss blogging, somehow i jus don't get round doing it... i m a lazy bum, self professed glutton(ken will be so happy i finally admit to this) and lazy bum bum... i've been pigging out the whole hols, actually mostly in melbourne sincei figured i'm no a holiday, i migth as well x stinge on food and food there is so good too... compared to adelaide altho it's not that food in adelaide sucks, i jus x eat out dat much since it's expensive to do so regularly...

was reading one of my friend's blog and could identify with wat he was going through and what he was struggling with... altho mus tsay we are in very different places and in differen situations... must say d similarities in reaction was quite like... hey, i m going tru dat too... jus dat i x mention it to anyone... so only God n i knows... and it does have a lot to do with surrendering to Him... going through a phase, like i need time off from God, or feel like ignoring Him and watever He's saying...cos one, i don't wanna change or at this stage i m unwilling to... two, i jus x feel like dealing with myself at this moment or x feel ready to face issues bout myself dat i know if i deal with them face on, i will be forced to do stg bout it...so ignorance is bliss or stupidity... threeit's not as if i x read God's Word, i do... feel i m jus willfully being disobedient... cos i m sick of being good? not dat i was a great saint to begin with... but i generally choose to do the right stuff... i still do... most of the time make d appropriate choices in life and react correctly... maybe i m going through some phase in life when i jus feel like letting myself run amok, if u get wat i mean... but sorta half restraining myself... but x half as much as i usually do, cos most of us would have a 'sane' side and an 'insane' side... letting my 'insane' side emerged... bad bad idea...

i m not going kerayzee as far as i know... maybe i have lack of insight...hehe... doing psychiatry now, quite interesting. talked to some patients... some really seemed perfectly normal... they look norma, they behave relatively normally but can say the most bizzarre things.. the patient i clerked this afternoon said he saw a fire ball shooting across the road when he was driving 2 yrs ago... tot it was quite funny but of cos i x luff...

dat's all fer now... will cont next time... malas to type d....

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