feels like ages since i last actually wrote stg.... not because didn't wanna write but everytime i wanted to, d net would somehow be jammed or stg and it x load d page for creating a new post, which is quite annyoing so i jus end up posting up pictures since that only requires picasa n it usually works...

life's been okie.... but okie can mean a lot of things... moderately good, mildly stressful, boring, bit annoying... all categorized under okie... things that x seem big enuff to whine about... altho sometimes i do whine n lament n complain....bout everything... jus to let out some steam.... cos i learnt small things accumulate to become big things n in the end, jus explodes....n whining does help get d small things outta d way, sorta after whining, feels lots better n accumulative effect is much less....

tues to friday was influencers conference for my church, paradise community church if you guys r blur, it was great, altho mus say i was really konked everyday, cos had to rush here n there.... ushering....always thought ushering was a easy job or at least my past experiences were relatively easy.....but with a 3000 over people crowd and sudden hundreds flooding into the balcony, trying to find seats for everyone without making anyone ki siao.... quite a big task, man.... one daughter started crying cause her mom was making a fuss over the seating, i felt so bad.... and there was an old guy who refuse to get into his place n sat on the stairs... not to mention people who just somehow or other get mad or impatient when they can't find a seat tat he last minute and act as if the ushers owe it to them to find them a seat....stress ness.... all in all...an eye opening experience and oso a kaki patah ing one... wore heels, d pointy shoes with little heels and standing like 2/3 of the night in those.... no fun... really admire those women who walk roud in their stillettos.... my poor feet has been tortured by my vanity... well, wearing a skirt without heels when i m 155cm.... quite disastrous.... good thing the ozzies aren't as tall as i tot they would be...

trying out some colours.... tot it might be more interesting den jus the plain old black font... i really got to study, my super procrastinating self is jus too lazy to move... lack of motivation.... after a tiring week....all i want to do is to relax n take a break... jus chill... jus not to anything much... as my friend said.... saturday is "meeting with himself" and want it to be "meeting with su ling" not be bothered by life's problems, issues that need to be dealt with....jus meeting n reflecting n giving myself a break... d only problem with me...if i dun do stg, i will find stg to do...i cant not do anything.... even sleeping is doing stg.... fidget a lot.... jus gotta do stg.... in d end, i x feel relaxed, i x feel rested.... i did ntg much, did stg...but felt like i achieved nothing.... crapologinesss....new word.... good thing is it's supposed to be a break anyway so it's okie if i x achieve anything, bad thing.... aiks, where did my break go to? *pengsan*

God grant me strength to walk on each day... help me that i may not go astray...give me my daily bread and help me to not be sesat and blur.... grant me the wisdom so i have better time mangaement. i am severely in need of that... God, help!! it's Your time after all.... You have put eternity in my heart.... but i still have to be good steward of the time You bless me with here. *stoning...slweepie* You said...not by might, not by strength but by the Spirit of God... i just gotta trust You it's gonna work out...somehow... thank you Lord. In Jesus name.amen.