i m back from manila... at my relative's house now.... so dat's why so free and nothing much to do.... blogging.... has now turned into my remedy for boredom... and jus to pass time and ramble bout random stuff... okie... i m suppose to blog bout manila....

1 thing is for sure.... i feel so blessed to be back in m'sia.... no where better than home.... the conference was great and all.... but i think i m starting to hate travelling and sitting around airports.... bout 30 hours of flying and hanging around airports for the past month or so is getting to me..... i still wanna go places.... but i think not in a long while.... i need a break....

Manila.... was pretty excited to go, didn't sleep much the night before... cos was afraid i'd oversleep.... zzz at 12 woke up at 2 stg... dozed till 4.... we were all quite zombified. yen, foon n i.... went to the airport... only half the people were there... okie.... so we were quite early.... 5 stg n d flight's at 7 20am. well, i always like to be on d safe side of things... nvm, the many "nyek nyek nyek" from nick saying i'm not a seasoned traveller bla bla bla and only need to turn up 1 hr before hand and only crazy ppl would turn up so early at the airport.... oh, nvm.... no point arguing.... at 5 am in the morning, there were many crazy people at the lcct.... like hundreds....

4 hrs of flight.... tried to catch some sleep... guess wat? the seat wouldn't recline.... grrrrr..... dumb air asia, and when they made the announcements, "please put up your seat...." excuse me.... cannot even recline. well found out later on, some of the other seats could recline and some have to really wack it real hard only can... probably was too stiff... anyway caught some winks here and there.... reached at 11 stg, no time difference between manila and here.... met some of the people from the KL church and a pair of twins from every nation new zealand... took a shuttle bus to Manila, the airplane landed in Clark which was bout 2 hrs away.... Clark is like Kelantan or Kedah.... goats, kerbau, paddy fields.... you get the idea.... zinc houses.... entering into Manila, the traffic gets heavier.... see more jipneys(pic above) - open air vans that are the cheapest form of transportation around.... many colourful ones with different patterns and funky graffiti on them.... look sorta cool, but we didn't sit on 1.... for the fact, it only goes short distances then you have to get off and get on another 1 (too troublesome), it's open air and the air is really polluted...

okie now on the conference.... anyone who is interested in listening to the msges at http://www.everynation07recap.com/ everything's there so jus feel free to leech of there. jus checked, the msges not out yet.... gonna be up there soon hopefully... the pictures are up though...

going out soon.... and suddenly feel slweepie.... zzzz.... it's 11 stg and i am slweepie? i need someone to zap me....

heading to manila tomorrow!!! i'm so excited ... actually now i am quite free, already packed everything.... where are my twizzers? they are missing somewhere, i m sure i packed them in.... anyways, no worries... it will turn up. me hopeth so. already marinated the chicken wings n dough is out for pizza for dinner tonight. cleaned the room. nick's out at col. i wonder what do housewives do in their free time? i already boiled the water, cooked chicken porridge for lunch. made d bed. checked my mail this morning. did some last minute packing now. now waiting for yen n foon to get their butts here. that's why i am blogging. maybe i should study... doesn't seem to be the best idea somehow. i can't wait... time seem to pass oh so slowly.... faster LAH!!!

well, i hope i don't last minute forget to bring my toothbrush or glasses. jus a worry wart, i should be alright, after all i did pack all in less than half an hour to come back from adelaide, with help from bunny of course, she's a dear, what would i do without a good housemate? *pengsans*

expecting a lot from God in manila.... n really hoping i won't be so broke - till super broken.... when i come back, thus d mee in my mug n julie's biscuits to snack on... RESIST the temptation of shopping..... blergghhh.... i still need to buy souvenirs right? n mommy's present.... mampus!!!( good news is can share with sis for family presents, haha.... kiam siap nya) i hope it's cooler in manila, sweat sweat sweat.... i SWEAT.... not perspire.... i'm not very ladylike ...

sayang, faster come back from col!!
yen n foon, cepat terbang la.... air asia memang teruk.... change flight time twice.... *hit their head!*
time, faster pass pls....

I M BORED!!!

this is so funny.... noticed the rose??

I have been in hibernation for the past 2 weeks besides going back to Adelaide for the weekend and clinic sessions on weekdays. Think I sort off enjoy the hermit life. Like Yen and I said…. “umang umang” supposedly with orange shell and small yellow flowers… well, it’s sort off nice to ignore the world once in a while and jut do my own thing, not have to worry bout others but just pleasing myself. It’s certainly a selfish way to live in the long run but for short breaks…. It sometimes is a relief… I think sometimes I just want to ignore the entire world including God, everything and just shut up from everything. It is however not possible to do that without people around trying to break into my “umang-umang” shell…. And it does get lonely, thus my online relationships on msn with people… they are safe, they don’t make me feel like I have any obligations to pretend to be anything… oh well, I could look like crap in my pajamas n still yak on msn…. And yet sometimes some people break into my peace and quiet and make me deal with issues I would rather not deal with…. For e.g., family problems, friendship issues, this and that…. May be minor or major… disturbing my currently really quiet and boring life…. and it forces me out of my shell… which is uncomfortable, can see why “umang umang” like to hide in the shell. It’s hard, it’s safe, the world out there is a dangerous place for a softie…. You will get hurt….

Nothing drastic has happened…. I just like my alone moments… and yet not be lonely…. Which is not entirely possible. There was no one in d house for the past 3 days and I was totally fine. I cleaned the kitchen, toilet, baked, plucked oranges…. Watched my Korean shows… as I have been for the past 2 weeks…. And it kills time. It takes up so much time actually just waiting for it to stream, I think by the time I finish watching like 3 korean shows it’s time for me to sleep…. Man, this life certainly is as if I am so super free and need not study… which isn’t true…. I should be studying…. But this GP rotation has been really chill, the docs are nice…. I read up a couple of things… but otherwise, I really don’t see the need to study that hard…. I tried, 1^stnd week, clinical problems in general medicine and surgery… week… oxford clinical handbook. I finished ecg part n some cvs stuff… 2 I think I studied bout 5 cases…. Or better, mostly bout lumps in the neck, groin, breast etc. all my surgery knowledge flew off after hols last year. Might be earlier than that… blerggghhhh… post holiday syndrome… it’s hard to jump start myself to study, I even brought my books back home to study… I didn’t even touch them….my procrastinating self…. I am an expert at wasting time… there should be a Procrastination Competition… I m sure I qualify and have a good chance at winning too, on the other hand, might have a lot of competition… *_*

Looking forward to going back to Adelaide in 4 days times… and even more to going back to KL to my sayang… listening to Disney songs now…. Mulan – a girl worth fighting for. It’s quite funny… at times like this listening to some funny weird songs, just suits current mood…. 4 days I hope it passes soon… but 3 weeks please pass so super slowly… really hope Manila will give me a big kick in the butt and get me moving for some time… you know sometimes when life becomes too mundane, need something different to happen to shake me out of this procrastination… it’s something that is a big problem for me…. When there is something really urgent for me to, I will just do it all out… but then if nothing much turns up after that… I will be taking this break…. Trust me can be quite prolonged… until the next something turns up…. And if it doesn’t I go into this slow mode…. Really kemalasan terserlah…. Nick said… you like a cat, can sleep for 20 hours… I don’t think cats do that. Koalas do that… well, ya…. In super procrastination mode, I probably can laze for 20 hrs… n only have 4 productive hours a day…. Of well, eating, msn ing, watching anime or Korean movies… seeing friends, going out….. I suppose it’s a good thing I m studying medicine as well… need to always study and be on my toes, if I were in one of those courses where can skip a lot of classes and exams twice a year… I think I would be lazing through my year….

a picture says a thousand words..... hehe.... i like this one....

this was how it looked like.... delicious right? hehe.... look at chu yao char... this so so deliciously fattening.... oh well, it's still the best char koay teow I've ever eaten!! lorong selamat ckt!!

sigh... i wanted to put a picture up showing God = Comforter.... well not exactly the blankie punya comforter.... but well, it's nice to have God around me like a comforter on a cold winter's day... with a mug of hot chocolate and mashmallows... n ended up finding something like 15, 000 images that are irrelevant.... showing blankets and other things... well, as a consolation... i found a very nice mug of hot chocolate.... however, i didn't wanna make it seem like God = hot chocolate.... somehow didn't seem very right. though hot chocolate is really good n comforting as well.... it's not dat cold here in penang...actually quite hot and rainy....

think i will need a lot of hot chocolate when i go back.... ( i really don't wanna go back yet- especially maitland)

after lunch....

life has jus improved.... hehe... God is good ya. funny way of improving my life. i got a haircut!! n d best part my mum paid for it.... so la la la.... happy, jus a trim but happy anyway..... n went for lorong selamat char koay teow. good thing the queue not dat long.... but wow.... so oily.... n jonathan (godma's son) ate 3 plates plus 2 ice kacang.... keng chao!! i ate 1 plate n half n ice kacang la.... dun wanna be a ta fei po la.... anyway not dat i can stuff dat much oso.... dat's crazy.!!

so well free haircut.... happily full and officially in a nice aircon room.... outside is super hot.... i am a happier piggy.... :)

yen is gonna kill me... one reason y this pic is not on my friendster... she seldom reads my blog.... hee hee *evil luff* cute mua.... sad yen face.... sulking... ( i m such a nice best friend )

been quite siok sendiri...cam whoring.... snap snap here.... snap snap there.... had a nice time with yin.... i m a bad influence.... cam whoring.... neighbours from hell... and hammer heads.... i m sure she had fun too.... hee hee....

i m bored.... easily bored is a bad thing.... always requirin something to keep me occupied.... so i zzz to kill time... cos i m bored of working.... boring donkey job.... ya.... I M BORED OF BEING BORED!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR........***

i got this from yen... she is so sweet.... hehe, my comfort food and white chocolate somemore... sudden influx of food. i got cheese cake from my mum n seri muka n blue kuih from my sis... hehe.... sadly left the tomyam in d car, but well...so many things to eat d....don't be so tam ciak la...

i am a piggy..... eating n sleeping 2 of my fav past times...

i feel sien with life.... stressed ar.... siao... i m supposed to be on holidays.... well, working at the clinic is definitely stressed inducing. i think being within 5 metre radius of my mum induces stress in just bout everyone.... blergghhhh... man, i hate doing donkey jobs.... which is totally meaningless... just to be a good daughter.... well... some times i ki siao and just say i don't wanna do... like sit in front of com double checking every single word dat another nurse type.... eh... what a blardy waste of time.... jus use word check or let her finish it n then i check it. not sit in front there n try to strain my eyee.... anyway i just didn't do it...

well.... looking at the hamburger makes me feel mildly happy... since nick as usual is being nonsensical.... he's currently the hamburger emperor... so that makes me the hamburger empress.... kakakakakakakaka..... i think i m going nuts!

nothing much to blog.... still feel like blogging... quite merepek la me.... i love malaysia.... penang and kl.... penang more than kl... but well, nick is in kl.... so that's like my 2nd home... i don't feel like going back to adelaide...and that's still bout 1 n half weeks away.... time past so fast....

i m back in malaysia finally!!! it's so awesome to be back.... weather's hawt hawt hawt.... but it's been awesome, eating n being with nick.... and gonna see my sis n meet up with fat fat today.... i love malaysia!!! man, times like this jus makes me feel.... this is my home. waaaaagghhhhh! missing everything so much....

the fast has finally ended. nothing dramatic has happened externally but i believed internally God is working.... this fast has really strengthen my friendship with yen.... thank God for her constant support and love... and for myself.... think it jus puts into perspective how important certain things were to me.... like eating and planning meals.... alll became suddenly so much more difficult, how important these things were to me.... and how i could do without them.... and survived!!! truthfully i really don't think i wanna be vegetarian again for a long long time... and i m happy to be back msn ing.... it's good to know, i won't die of loneliness or boredom if i don't msn for 1 week...

went to ecf yesterday.... finally bought the cold out album, it's great.... especially like the songs, "Here I am" and "Always in My Heart".... God is good....

psalm 13

Psalm 13

1 How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?

2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

3 Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

4 my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

5 But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.

6 I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.

In such times, we are vulnerable to wrong assumptions and conclusions about life, about God, and about prayer. In Psalm 13, David wrestled with the problem of unanswered prayer. He questioned why the world was so dangerous and pleaded for answers from God.

It’s a hard psalm that David sang, and it seems to be one of frustration. Yet, in the end, his doubts and fears turned to trust. Why? Because the circumstances of our struggles cannot diminish the character of God and His care for His children. In verse 5, David turned a corner. From his heart he prayed, “But I have trusted in Your mercy; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.”

In the pain and struggle of living without answers, we can always find comfort in our heavenly Father. —Bill Crowder

i have wondered what happenes if my prayer don't get answered by the end of thse 21 days? would i lose faith? God spoke me through this psalm.... to continue to trust in Him and find comfort and joy in His salvation.... i am continuing to believe.... even though some things do seem impossible.... with God all things are possible.... few more days to go.... to home!!!!

i m bored.... really... taking a brak now frm studying... and i have only done it for 1 n half hrs.... help! tons more to go but yet jus getting bored at every page... trudging along super unwillingly... i need to ka yao ar!!! *pengsan* due to amount of notes....

Joshua 6

1 Now Jericho was tightly shut up because of the Israelites. No one went out and no one came in.

2 Then the LORD said to Joshua, "See, I have delivered Jericho into your hands, along with its king and its fighting men. 3 March around the city once with all the armed men. Do this for six days. 4 Have seven priests carry trumpets of rams' horns in front of the ark. On the seventh day, march around the city seven times, with the priests blowing the trumpets. 5 When you hear them sound a long blast on the trumpets, have all the people give a loud shout; then the wall of the city will collapse and the people will go up, every man straight in."

6 So Joshua son of Nun called the priests and said to them, "Take up the ark of the covenant of the LORD and have seven priests carry trumpets in front of it." 7 And he ordered the people, "Advance! March around the city, with the armed guard going ahead of the ark of the LORD."

8 When Joshua had spoken to the people, the seven priests carrying the seven trumpets before the LORD went forward, blowing their trumpets, and the ark of the LORD's covenant followed them. 9 The armed guard marched ahead of the priests who blew the trumpets, and the rear guard followed the ark. All this time the trumpets were sounding. 10 But Joshua had commanded the people, "Do not give a war cry, do not raise your voices, do not say a word until the day I tell you to shout. Then shout!" 11 So he had the ark of the LORD carried around the city, circling it once. Then the people returned to camp and spent the night there.

12 Joshua got up early the next morning and the priests took up the ark of the LORD. 13 The seven priests carrying the seven trumpets went forward, marching before the ark of the LORD and blowing the trumpets. The armed men went ahead of them and the rear guard followed the ark of the LORD, while the trumpets kept sounding. 14 So on the second day they marched around the city once and returned to the camp. They did this for six days.

15 On the seventh day, they got up at daybreak and marched around the city seven times in the same manner, except that on that day they circled the city seven times. 16 The seventh time around, when the priests sounded the trumpet blast, Joshua commanded the people, "Shout! For the LORD has given you the city! 17 The city and all that is in it are to be devoted [a] to the LORD. Only Rahab the prostitute [b] and all who are with her in her house shall be spared, because she hid the spies we sent. 18 But keep away from the devoted things, so that you will not bring about your own destruction by taking any of them. Otherwise you will make the camp of Israel liable to destruction and bring trouble on it. 19 All the silver and gold and the articles of bronze and iron are sacred to the LORD and must go into his treasury."

20 When the trumpets sounded, the people shouted, and at the sound of the trumpet, when the people gave a loud shout, the wall collapsed; so every man charged straight in, and they took the city. 21 They devoted the city to the LORD and destroyed with the sword every living thing in it—men and women, young and old, cattle, sheep and donkeys.

this is today's devotion and i believe God wants to me to breakthrough like the walls of jericho... keep on marching... may be pretty ridiculous and doesn't make any sense at this current moment... but jus keep marching and be obedient.... the walls will come tumbling down....

i still remembered... 2 years ago.... the prophecy... the walls will come tumbling down... like the walls of jericho.... and at that time it did... and i m contending that it will too....this time.... come crashing down....

this is a bit old since it's been a month or so.... but i sitll like this pic.... baaaa dearest, i miss you~!

my leave has been approved~!

God is good. my 1st super obvious answered prayer for the week... my leave to go back in july got approved~! has been worrying me a bit since i'm taking 3 weeks off to go back to malaysia and to go to manila for Every Nation Conference 07. I really want to go for this conference... and believing for great things to happen there and even before hand that God will prepare me through this fast.

some pretty crappy and sad things has happened this week... and that is to be expected as well. when we fast and pray, the enemy prob is definitely not sleeping.... prob up to no good... but sometimes can see myself reacting badly to situations.... but thank God He has prepared me to deal with the issues and problems that came this week. and overall i feel God.... YOU ARE DEFINITELY WORKING.... despite the facts, the circumstances, i m believing for greater things to happen.... to all the people who are also fasting, add oil!!! persevere!!! yen, we can do it together!! it's been a good week.... despite the hunger pangs and not eating chocolates, drinking my tea.... and jus normal food i take for granted.... God, You are a good God.

okies now, back to studying... i need to study really hard.... please help me God. :)