the frustrations of having a screwed up connection.... it's been acting up for the past 2 weeks. ug!!! oh why why why adam must u behave in such an idiotic way? grrrrrrrrrrrr..........keep on dc when i half way online.... that's why i have been going off and on msn. like a biscuit? ( i don't know what is the connection to biscuits but that's baya analogy) on and off... so freaking annoying... good thing there's a unsecure line around... altho i do feel bad sometimes... to put it this way. if i use the unsecure line i don't do the dowloading n youtubing.... just to make myself feel better. after all it's not my line. i do treat it as my spare line sometimes when i get extremely frust with stupid adam and just wanna be online so bad. onlining is my part time in adelaide, especially when it's cold, rainy, wet and somewhat miserable...

i m bored.........grrrrrrrrrr...... well, there's studying... and there's studying.... it's sunday evening... one of the more depressing days in a week.... sunday eveving when i wake up to find my weekend nearly gone.... oh well, hehe.... was a non study weekend. nice... i m so hard to please. i don't wanna study yet i feel like the weekend has been waste if i don't...hehe. i still end up not studying. i really should. i know. it's nice to sleep in. to go kai kai with friends. to jus chill, after all... mon - fri have to study have to go hospital d .... i can give myself a break right? hehe.... so what is the solution of bored but dun wanna study? bug people on msn..... hehe. my fav pasttime. as baya would say. yakking.... keep on yak yak yak...

good thing i wanna be a physician... more a yakking job than surgeons.... they jus cut, chop, suture... sounds so gruesome....

okie back to yakking....

inspiration....

just finished wtaching 1 liter of tears. found it really inspiring. the story of a girl who had spinocerebellar atrophy. how she struggled as her body failed her. slowly 1 by 1 of her normal function - walking, talking, swallowing failed her.... nonetheless her heart remained strong and how she persevered even in the loneliness and darkness of what was happening that she was such a light to others. she helped them, encouraged them to continue to push on to fight on... and even though she struggled so much herself she wanted to help others. she wanted her life to count for something. she wrote a diary that sold 180,000 copies worldwide to give courage to others who are too in pain and struggling.

i didn't really cry. some people told me they cried bucket loads ( maybe exaggerating a bit) but it just showed me how frailed humanity is and yet how resilient we can be in the midst of sickness and pain. and in the midst of darkness light can shined so brightly from the person whose life has been shattered. and i look at myself, and feel that i want to be a better person because of that. with my functioning body and the many blessings i have... many times i have chose to selfishly pleased myself.... whereas someone who has her health taken away from her, the life she could have had the brigth future that she would have lived taken away from her.... she chose to be an inspiration, she chose not to give up... she chose to live her best. i feel like i wanna lived my best too.

on the lighter side.... what kids think of angels...

Henry, 8 "Angels don't eat, but they drink milk from Holy Cows!!!."

Vicki, 8 "What I don't get about angels is why, when someone is in
love, they shoot arrows at them."

i thought these were really funny....

happy sunday people~!

to hsu en.... happy birthday~!

some days i feel like.... God, can You please remove my heart and just give me a brand new 1?

Ezekiel 36:26

26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.

i wonder how many times do i need a new hear? i think more like everyday than just a once off thing. sometimes it just seems like nothing is right with my heart. so i don't even know where to start cleaning up. so i ignore watever is wrong.... it's all vague and messed up anyway.... other days, i wake up... such clarity.... i know very well what is right and wrong.... the world seems prefectly black and white... no hard decisions.... all pretty straight forward, sometimes i really wished the world isn't usch a complicated place.... can we all be programmed to wanna make the right decisions? and can it be that there are multiples right answers and multiple wrong answers? blergghhhhh.... so how would we know we have entirely made the correct decision for ourselves and others? or should we just blunder around in life and somehow hope that our judgement is sound enough to not screw up badly....

God,help!!! what happens when i don't know what exacly to do and God seems totally silent? WAIT? till when?

this is what i think....do i try to make the most sound n logical decision based on facts, circumstances and conscience? seems simple enough. but actually think it x work that well. 1st life is illiogical. if i think bout it, if i totally believe in the supernatural God which is unexplained by science, how can what i believe in be logical? here comes FAITH..... so should i just make the decisions by FAITH that God will support me and go with me? even though it may be the most illogical way to go at that moment....

i have made tons of decisions based on something as stupid as human wisdom.... and some of them turned up alright and some screwed up..... and i have made decisions based on God's wisdom, His Word and how He has guide me.... it hasn't bunked up real bad as far as i can remember although can be pretty hard.... i think His way is probably the best way.... jus have to figure which way is He leading me too....


random thoughts....

shubz is here~!

hehe... my dearest is here! well a bit slow since she has been here from thursday. but o well, better late than never, after all too busy having fun to blog...

it's nice jus chilling with old friends. so if any of you wanna come visit bunny n i, most welcome. for me, i m always bored anyway so people coming is nice....

hehe.... we were to barossa valley to see all the wineries and taste wine. surprisingly, baaaa was a real good girl, she didn't really drink, hehe.... i was quite nottie, jus tried everything... mostly dessert wines and liquers.... the table wines can't compare after that. bougt a bottle of apple wine which we opened last nigth after a nice bak kut teh dinner with lots of chilli padi... haha. baaa n i were struggling to eat chilli padi. super pedas! but was good. nice chinese dinner.... with apple strudel, grapes and apple wine at the end.... hee hee... went to port adelaide to see the dolphins... sadly there was no dolphins. we were freezing our butts on the ferry but as nice.... taking photos. (tons of them) and jus yakking.... bot a heart shaped thing to hang in my room. it's cute.... it says "hoem is where i hang my heart" well, which is totally true since i won't be hanging my heart at anybody else's house.

gonna go out soon.... n upload the pics... picasa is somehow not working anymore. some cookies problem which i cant' figure out how to fix... so now using slide... which is fine as well. can upload tons at 1 go...

hmmm.... for once i m at loss at what to blog... blergh, was thinking bout something then dear housemate came barging into my room adn i lost my train of thoughts.... to myself *always blaming other ppl... tssk tssk* today is saturday!!! and it's a holiday on monday cos sunday is easter sunday.... hmmm, n deep down in my heart, i m asking myself? why the heck am i so focused on holiday instead of the actual significance of easter? yesterday went to church for Good friday service.... had communion.it was a super short sharing by pastor mat before communion, on how it was a sad sad day for God and for Jesus' disciples when He died, since when do we rejoice when someone dear to us die? imagine even when my hamster die oso i m sad, what more a human? but for us, a happy day because of what He's acoomplished at the cross, if He did not die and rose again everything we have been doing in church would be utter rubbish and what i believed in for the past 5 years would have been jus pure philosophy. i decided it's happy Good Friday for me....and this theory in my head is that altho it was a sad sad day for God and His disciples when He died.... IT was a joyous day that He rose again and the power of death and darkness has been defeated....

and thus it was a happy day for all.... now.... except satan of course, coming back to why i m so much concerned bout holidays... cos it's been tiring with peds exams just last week and just a week end in between for o n g this week.... this break.... a Godsend. well, it literally is anyway. altho for different reasons. so well, everyday's filled with some activity.... shouldn't i be resting? hmmm... yesterday was church then a bbq in d evening... which was awesome.... today church program - chicken run tonight.... tomorrow church and victor harbour to see the fairy penguins... monday is free.... maybe i should get down to studying... jus so dun feel like it.... it's 4 precious days. maybe a teeny weeny bit of studying so i won feel guilty after of spending the entire week end bumming around...

i am bored right now. trying to think of something constructive to do besides surfing and reading other people's blogs. you can find otu a lot abotu a person by reading their blogs evn though you don't knwo them well. and well, i m just bored.... it's after peds exams... and i adi went to harris scarfe yesterday.... they had 50% off nearly evrything in the shop. din buy anything. (i'm so kuai) hehe.... the stuff was still expensive.... there was a very cute pair of pink slippers i liked for 15 dollars but wat the heck. it's autumn so just don't make sense to wear slippers. and i have bout 4 pairs of shoes i haven even wore and some since last year. bot this pair of shoes that were quite cute frm betts last year, just cause it's cheap. and went back to find it's too hard at the back, would prob cause me blisters unless i wear socks. which really don't go. so i have been procrastinating on wearing. sigh, i know i should have gone back to return it.....but was jus thinking well maybe i would wear it after all..... okay since it's bout 6 months past i better get down to wearing them since there is no way i m returning them now. another tot, i could give them to a 2nd hand shop if they really hurt my feet....

besides the point, anyway i bot 2 more pairs of shoes bout a week ago, they were really cheap and i have a feeling thery are gonna cause blisters too. i think it's just my feet....they always blister, 1 cause i don't like callused feet so i pumis them and put tons of lotion till they soften up.... bunny's theory jus let the blister callus up and they will form callus in the right places n it won't hurt anymore.... but I DON'T WANNA HAVE UGLY FEET!!! alternative.... wear comfortable ah ma shoes... jus put up with the blisters.... don't whine so much, who tell me to keep on buying new shoes jus cause they r cheap.... watever...

good news is .... i can wear my new boots to church tomorrow.... haha, it's full blast autumn now, so it's cold enough, it's jus stupid to wear boots in summer altho some ppl do, when i can wear sandals n flip flops... i wear my open toe stuff to hospital too. nobody cares, some docs do it too.... hehe, jus try not to meet any mean docs or nurses or wear them to OT... dat would be disastrous altho i have done that as well jus wear those funny shoe cover thing over so it's not noticeable, after all it's jus to watch an endoscope.

man, do i sounds like a total bimbo... i have to admit, i m a total shoe addict, i love buying shoes.... more shoe n bag person than clothes....

i am going shopping tomorrow!!!! tea tree plaza, here i come!! well, for a heater.... and maybe a new winter jacket.... want one of those long ones... i already have one. dun think it's very warm...

should i wear my beanie? hmmm... think it makes my face looks fat.... chubbiness.... wat to do... as usual buy stuff siok siok... but in the end din really wear.... :(

random thoughts....

hmmm.... hopefully God'll help me find a nice and good and cheap heater.... i don't wanna freeze my butt in winter.... brrrrrrrr...... jus not taking the cold very well.... a good reason to go back to msia for good, at least i can enjoy the nice warm weather and not bother bout jackets n sweaters n d likes.... jus go out n wear watever....don't matter.... it's so boring here. i don't even know where to go. limited places to go for entertainment that's affordable for students.... i feel like going karaoke.... jus sing stupid songs in my out of tune voice till i feel happy... siao....

listening to some crappy jap song on my fren's com. dun really like most of his song collection. jus different taste....

o n g next week.... sniff, i hope it'll be pretty chill for a while. studying for peds sapped quite a lot of energy.... i m jus a lazy bum... anyway i think exam went fine....

enuff of rambling.....

The Seven Wonders Of The World!

A group of students was asked to list what they thought were
the present Seven Wonders of the World. Though there was
some disagreement, the following got the most votes:

1. Egypt's Great Pyramids

2. Taj Mahal

3. Grand Canyon

4. Panama Canal

5. Empire State Building

6. St. Peter's Basilica

7. China's Great Wall

While gathering the votes, the teacher noted that one quiet
student hadn't turned in her paper yet, so she asked the girl if
she was having trouble with her list.

The girl replied, "Yes, a little. I couldn't quite make up my
mind because there were so many." The teacher said, "Well,
tell us what you have, and maybe we can help."

The girl hesitated, then read, "I think the Seven Wonders of
the World are:

1. to See

2. to Taste

3. to Touch

4. to Hear

She hesitated a little, and then added,

5. to Feel

6. to Laugh

7. and to Love

The room was so full of silence you could have heard a pin
drop. Those things we overlook as simple and "ordinary" are
truly wondrous. This is a gentle reminder that the most
precious things in life cannot be bought. God gave them to us.

Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect, it just means
you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.

totall agree.... sometimes i do take all these things for granted and whine bout the smallest things.... and to think the 7 simplest things are the 7 wonders of the world especially if you don't have them....

God, help me appreciate what You have given me... and complain less bout things i don't have.... *smiles*

constipated....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oWXYzUbpte8&mode=related&search=

listen to this... it's hilarious...

studying is boring but i still got to di it anyway.... proud to annouce i adi studied bout 3 hours today.... 2 more hours to go.....zzzzz.....

i m so suppose to be studying right now. but jus feel unsettled, dat's the most accurate word for what i m feeling rite now. jus not quite right but not too wrong either like got a lump in my heart...was going tru some online surveys. found a web where they pay u jus to do online surveys. onw 100% it works. anyway no harm trying out n oso get a free mac, i m still kinda wary but well, who knwos... if i do get a free mac in the near future i will recommend it to you guys out there.... anyway back to this unsettled feeling, was feeling kinda excited... prospects of making money online.... hmmmm.... on the hadn quite wary that nothing is free in this world n sure enough after a few links, some offers require u to spend even 49 cents jus to qualify for the free gift... man, FREE is not equivalent to free id have to take up offers that require to u pay to qualify for the FREE gift.... blerrgggghhhhhhhhh...

was thinking. how come i am not so half enthusiastic bout the things of God compared to like.... getting a FREE gift that i don need? just a thought.... jus sat there for a while n prayed.... bit unhappy with myself cos of that.... ya, sure i m human, maybe tad bit materialistic, i reckon it's a female thing to like sales and free things n stuff well i dun really need but jus feel like having.... for the heck of it, well, those who know me well, i m a total hoarder, can u believe i had stuff from primary school up till last year. and dat's cos my papa chucked most of them out cos he was renovating the house. sigh... and i was lamenting for quite a while bout my stuff.... and well, on the other hand, i m kinda not too fuss ed bout expensive stuff i lose. like i lose like gold chains, white chain chains... expensive trinklets, money.... not that small sums either... and i jus sorta got over it and well, wasn't too sad bout it for too long, i lost my laptop.... well someone stole it...some would be depressed for a while.... i got over it, maybe in 3 days? wondering if i m crazy.... 1, i still think i m a bit materialistic cos i love shopping n nice stuff...altho i dun go for prada, gucci or anything like that.... 2, i think despite that i m not too fussed bout losing the stuff i already have.... sorta like.... i dun even know if you get what i mean.... like i like to have stuff, but i dun love them till i cant bear to part with them or throw a big fit if i lose stg big....

i really should be studying and not pondering on all these things... turned up my fav worship songs n jus worshipped for a while, felt somewhat better, hope God will shine a torch into some areas of my heart and come out with this really meticulous analysis of what's in there. sometimes i just cant figure myself out....maybe i don't really wanna know. ignorance = bliss.... knowledge = responsibility.... maybe the great reason is i m not ready to know too much... i might not like myself much after that....


STUDY TIME CHUA SU LING.....!!!!!!!!!

BIBLICAL VITAMINS

Biblical Vitamins for our Spiritual well being

When Anxious, take vitamin "A"
ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD TO
THOSE WHO LOVE WHO LOVE GOD, TO THOSE
WHO ARE CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE.
( ROMANS 8:28 )

When Crushed, take vitamin "C"
CAST ALL YOUR CARES UPON HIM, FOR HE
CARES FOR YOU. ( 1 PETER 5:7 )

When Depressed, take vitamin "D"
DRAW NEAR TO GOD, AND HE WILL DRAW NEAR
TO YOU. ( JAMES 4:8 )

When Empty, take vitamin "E"
ENTER INTO HIS GATES WITH THANKSGIVING,
AND INTO HIS COURTS WITH PRAISE. BE
THANKFUL TO HIM, AND BLESS HIS NAME.
( PSALM 100:4 )

When Fearful, take vitamin "F"
FEAR NOT, FOR I AM WITH YOU, DO NOT BE
AFRAID, FOR I AM YOUR GOD. ( ISAIAH 41:10 )

When Greedy, take vitamin "G"
GIVE, AND IT WILL BE GIVEN TO YOU; GOOD
MEASURE, PRESSED DOWN, SHAKEN TOGETHER,
AND RUNNING OVER WILL BE PUT INTO YOUR
LAP. FOR WITH THE SAME MEASURE THAT YOU
USE, IT WILL BE MEASURED BACK TO YOU.
(LUKE 6:38 )

When Insecure, take vitamin "I"
I CAN DO ALL THING THROUGH HIM WHO
STRENGTHENS ME. ( PHILIPPIANS 4:13 )

When Lonely, take vitamin "L"
LO, I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS, EVEN TO THE END
OF THE AGE. MATTHEW 28:20 )

When Restless, take vitamin "R"
REST IN THE LORD, AND WAIT PATIENTLY FOR
HIM. ( PSALM 37:7 )

For Dessert,
WHOEVER BELIEVES IN HIM SHOULD NOT PERISH
BUT HAVE ETERNAL LIFE! ( JOHN 3:15 )

Your Heart Is Blue

Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well. You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return. Your flirting style: Friendly Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish What you bring to relationships: Loyalty

What Color Heart Do You Have?

tot my blog needed a revamp...

well.... it's a new year...altho this is already march... so it's sorta already the 3rd month in to 2007... tot it would be good to revamp my blog... it's autumn here in aussie land. getting quite chilly. freezing my fingers now typing... otherwise quite bundled up... weather has been horrendous last week. up to 40s most days... this week is lot cooler ranging bout 16-28. now i understand why the "whites" are so much into discussing the weather. it's an important part of their life here. i check the weather forcast regularly. to decide what to wear. whether to go out. it has a significant influence on my life. whereas in m sia. who cares rain or shine. jus drive la. can go shopping mall or somewhere sheltered. not a problem. well since i m walking here, i m quite exposed to the elements.... well, at least it's free weight loss program... hehe... i should be studying. but then again, i think i shall watch mean girls... :)

the good samaritan

was jus thinking when i was half asleep and this came to mind... well something triggered it. someone i know told me... he couldn't visit a friend's grandfather who was very sick because he had assignments to do... to me that was reasonable enough... well, it's his friend's grandafather after all, not his and he did have actual work to do.... and my train of thoughts jus went back to sunday's sermon on the Good Samaritan....

why was this good samaritan such a important figure that he is now used as a figure of speech? pastor ashley unravel the parable in a way i never really thought about, very logical.... yet was as if how come i didn't think bout that at all... anyway, this is what i remember anyway....

Jesus was having a conversation with a teacher of the Law.... and the teacher asked Him, " Who is my neighbour?"

Jesus being Himself began telling him this story....

Luke 10: 25 - 37

25On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. "Teacher," he asked, "what must I do to inherit eternal life?"

26"What is written in the Law?" he replied. "How do you read it?"

27He answered: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'^[c]; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'^[d]"

28"You have answered correctly," Jesus replied. "Do this and you will live."

29But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, "And who is my neighbor?"

30In reply Jesus said: "A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he fell into the hands of robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, took him to an inn and took care of him. 35The next day he took out two silver coins^[e] and gave them to the innkeeper. 'Look after him,' he said, 'and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.'

36"Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?"

37The expert in the law replied, "The one who had mercy on him."
Jesus told him, "Go and do likewise."

the teacher of the law being a Jew.... was waiting for Jesus to tell him that only Jews ( not only that, upstanding Jews) were his neighbours... it was the custom last time not to consort with people of deemed "unclean" or less than up to the jewish standards...

Pastor Ashley also explained... the priest.... if he touched an unclean person would have to be unclean for quite a few days and he wonn't be able to do his duties... he prob thought... i'd better not touch dat man, he might be dead... He knew the right thing to do but he chose not to do it... that's sad.... i might be in the same shoes one day and i certainly hope i would be the good samaritan rather than the people who passed the wounded man by....

what was great bout the good samaritan.... he came prepared to help... he had oil, bandages, wine.... he was prepared.... he knew that dat passway was dangerous and people get robbed and wounded.... and he came with the preparation to help.... he brought supplies and his donkey too... at 1st i thought it was a bit cheating, he had the heart to help the others didn't, that's wat gave him the advantage when it came to the choice of whether to help or not.... but then away.... people can still make the choice spot on.... 1 conclusion, make up my mind that i would help if the situation arise before anything happens.... come prepared....

another thing..... he went the extra mile... he didn't just badanged the man up and said... okay, i have done my part... good day! take care... he brought the man to the inn on his donkey and paid the inn keeper to take care of the man... dat is... wow.... he really went all the way...

i need inspiration God... well this parable is it... but real life please God...

i m bored...

waaaaaaaaaaaaa............ i got low tolerance for boredom.... no wonder i dun like this hospital. freaking boring. i miss modbury. so much more fun then this, at least i got interesting stuff to do. today i rocked up to the wards and there were only 2 patients on d list and the reg was no where to be found. sigh, read the notes, he has already seen them. o well, i thought at least there's a tute at 10, i just gotta kill some time before then, next i knew, msg came *tit tit*... tute is cancelled... *pengsan* next idea. since i m here, i might as well see some patients and practise for observed case next week... so i went and saw 2 patients which bot h had appendicitis and had their appendix out... not oto bad, my GI exam sucks... well it wasn't dat bad but i did miss a few things.... lazy person here haven been practising much... man, this is so not inspiring as the aussies would say. i totally do not feel inspired by this hospital... here cames the need for self inspiration.... uggg!!! chua su ling, you need to study harder and not wait for inspiration... sniff... i m disappointed with this hospital.

anyway, now i m gonna hop to the library near my place, not that near but well, at least i could borrow some books and take my mind of the whole boredom issue and lazy to study as heck but like pushing tons of bricks into my brain.... watever...random post. not sure if anyone understands what i m getting at.

i think common program would just add to the boredom... sigh, i haven been going at all for d last month... well i did for 1 lecture and it proved to be absolutely sien.... i m a lazy person. fact of life.
even my father says so. tho i tot it was mean of him to tell my friend. i was pretty hardworking n imu. jus not in adelaide. the whole environment is just not condusive to being dat OCD bout studies tho dun mistake me plenty of kiasu ppl ard...

i need entertainment!!!!

jus feel like blogging suddenly .blog has been quite dead... in the midst of moving now. still crashing at fren's apt... for the past 2 weeks and 1 more week to go since i m going to a hospital dat is quite far away. new place is gorgeous jus furnitureless... din no furniture n electricals could be so ex... but well i m certainly gonna be spending like nearly 2000ausd including d bond for the rent. maybe more...horendously expensive. tired as well. jus been to the new place to clean... washed the toilet mopped the kitchen and laundry area. it's like vista but bigger and a lot prettier. my room has white roses wall paper made of fabric. it's overlooking a cricket field. gorgeous place.

had a good week. looking fwd to a better one. doing peds now. thoroughly enjoying myself. tons more den adult medicine. and d hospital i m going to is one in a subrub so the ppl are so friendly and helpful compared to those in the city. i love it there and not to mention the kids r total angels. well there were some brats but they are sick at least they have a good reason to be bratty. i must say i am enjoying myself way more than i expected. did always wanted to go into peds but after this i think i m more or less set for it. hope i dun go into o n g n find dat i really love it too. well i x particularly feel like collecting babies or pulling babies outta women. watched a c section and the lady was gigantic not to mention d poor baby had an apgar score of 4. he was so scrawny. but so cute. hehe. my 1st c section. d poor lady's 4th c section. she had loads of adhesions. well, baby sorta picked up after a while. mum was given fentanyl (painkiller that makes baby drowsy and respiratory depressed for the non medic ppl)... dat's y he was sorta woozy.

all in all. i m enjoying baby checks. playing with kiddies. i mean they turst me like straight away. haha. so funny on the 1st day... d docs were trying to make tis kid walk cos she had some abnormal gait but she x want to. i knelt down n smiled at her and she walked twds me. haha... felt bit mean. well u know d whole hierachy thing. well the kid walked...so there. la la la...she had cute blond curls. n her walking is fine.

one of my friends said..."kids are evil." no they r not. he said i probably good at it cos i think d same way as they do. in other words... childish. well, i m not too bothered... at least i dun think kids are evil. they totally simple to understand quite straighforward not like adults. some can be manipulative mind u but well they are kids. all is forgiven jus cos of dat. have a feeling i'll prob spoil my kids silly. o well. long time to go. so no need to think so far in advance.

now all i can think of is dinner. my dear frens, ong lai n josh da man is in the kitchen cooking which is good. they CAN cook. and well i m sorta too tired and lazy to cook. prob do the dishes after. can smell the food. chicken was good, snitched a piece just now. hehe. i hope d food will cook soon. sniff sniff... I M HUNGWEEE!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........ haha. babies do that all the time... all their reflexes so amazing too. and counting all the toes and fingers n they got d cutest feet. like trolls. flat foot. :) i m totally infatuated.

hope u guys out there r doing well wherever u are... the juniors have arrived. went for picnic together. everything is going well. hoping for an awesome year...

Lord, lift me up and let me stand,
By faith, on Heaven’s table land,
A higher plane than I have found;
Lord, plant my feet on higher ground.

My heart has no desire to stay
Where doubts arise and fears dismay;
Though some may dwell where those abound,
My prayer, my aim, is higher ground.

I want to scale the utmost height
And catch a gleam of glory bright;
But still I’ll pray till Heaven I’ve found,
“Lord, plant my feet on higher ground.”

—Johnson Oatman, Jr.

ello everybadi....

this is a post jus to update my blog, i know it has been pretty pathetic. super lazy so go round updating stuff i find interesting but need not spend ages typing. as most of my dear frens know, i type with 4 fingers( 2 on each hand) which is freaking slow... but somehow amazingly fast when i msn... ya i know i am contraindicating myself... u will know what i am talking bout if u have chatted wid me on msn... hehe...

well, i have been pretty BUSY ( free but lazy to blog)... going out too much to bother to sit around to blog. actually now killing time before my fren come get me for women's meeting. i m such a bum. totally admit to that crime. it's hols... what do u expect? nothing less den su ling happily piggying away... i have actually been quite hardworking. worked 4-5 wks of my hols at my father's practice. 2 wks posting at Pg Gen Hos. well... my hols is only 10 wks!!! so technically i only have bout 3 wks to myself...